In My Mind

[00:00.84] In my mind in a future five years from now

[00:06.85] I'm one hundred and twenty pounds

[00:09.59] And I never get hung over

[00:15.10] Because I will be the picture of discipline

[00:19.84] Never minding what state I'm in

[00:23.85] And I will be someone I admire

[00:28.59] And it's funny how I imagined

[00:31.84] That I would be that person now

[00:35.34] But it does not seem to have happened

[00:38.86] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see

[00:45.61] That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be

[00:55.85] And in my mind

[00:58.60] In the faraway here and now

[01:02.16] I've become in control somehow

[01:05.93] And I never lose my wallet

[01:10.16] Because I will be the picture of of discipline

[01:15.66] Never fucking up anything

[01:19.66] And I'll be a good defensive driver

[01:24.66] And it's funny how I imagined

[01:27.41] That I would be that person now

[01:31.16] But it does not seem to have happened

[01:35.16] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see

[01:40.66] That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be

[01:52.15] And in my mind

[01:54.91] When I'm old I am beautiful

[01:58.40] Planting tulips and vegetables

[02:02.16] Which I will mindfully watch over

[02:06.65] Not like me now

[02:08.91] I'm so busy with everything

[02:12.40] That I don't look at anything

[02:16.41] But I'm sure I'll look when I am older

[02:20.91] And it's funny how I imagined

[02:24.15] That I could be that person now

[02:27.65] But that's not what I want

[02:29.65] But that's what I wanted

[02:31.42] And I'd be giving up somehow

[02:34.66] How strange to see

[02:37.91] That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be

[02:49.65] And in my mind

[02:52.16] I imagine so many things

[02:55.67] Things that aren't really happening

[02:59.43] And when they put me in the ground

[03:04.18] I'll start pounding the lid

[03:06.90] Saying I haven't finished yet

[03:09.91] I still have a tattoo to get

[03:13.41] That says I'm living in the moment

[03:18.66] And it's funny how I imagined

[03:21.67] That I could win this, win this fight

[03:25.16] But maybe it isn't all that funny

[03:28.90] That I've been fighting all my life

[03:31.66] But maybe I have to think it's funny

[03:35.66] If I wanna live before I die

[03:39.40] And maybe it's funniest of all

[03:43.66] To think I'll die before I actually see

[03:49.41] That I am exactly the person that I want to be

[04:00.91] Fuck yes

[04:04.15] I am exactly the person that I want to be