04. How Could You Leave Us
[00:26.35] How could you leave so unexpected?
[00:00.00] We waited, we waited
[00:00.00] For you, but you just left us
[00:00.00] We needed you, I needed you
[00:00.00] Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
[00:00.00] But I do know what it's like to be a witness, it kills
[00:00.00] Mama told me she loved me, I'm thinkin' this isn't real
[00:00.00] I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
[00:00.00] Welcome to the bottom of hell
[00:00.00] They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
[00:00.00] You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
[00:00.00] Sit in my room, tears runnin' down my face and I yell
[00:00.00] Into my pillowcases, say you comin' to get us
[00:00.00] Then call a minute later just to tell us you're not, I'm humiliated
[00:00.00] I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
[00:00.00] Some lady in the corner watchin' us while she's takin' notes
[00:00.00] I don't get it, Mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
[00:00.00] I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is "no"
[00:00.00] But you won't do it, will you? You gon' keep poppin' 'til them pills kill you
[00:00.00] I know you're gone, but I can still feel you
[00:00.00] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us here?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh
[00:00.00] Hey
[00:00.00] I got this picture in my room and it kills me
[00:00.00] But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
[00:00.00] Now a relationship is somethin' we won't ever have
[00:00.00] But why do I feel like I lost somethin' that I never had?
[00:00.00] You shoulda been there when I graduated
[00:00.00] Told me you loved me and congratulations
[00:00.00] Instead you left us at the window waitin'
[00:00.00] Where you at mom?
[00:00.00] We're too young to understand, where you at, huh?
[00:00.00] Yeah, I know them drugs have got you held captive
[00:00.00] I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
[00:00.00] Some say it's fun to get the high, but I am not laughin'
[00:00.00] And what you don't realize and what you're not graspin'
[00:00.00] That I was nothin' but a kid who couldn't understand it
[00:00.00] I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened
[00:00.00] I thought that maybe I'd feel better as time passes
[00:00.00] If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
[00:00.00] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us here?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh
[00:00.00] Hey
[00:00.00] Our last conversation, you and I sat in the livin' room
[00:00.00] Talkin' 'bout my music and I brought you some to listen to
[00:00.00] You started cryin', tellin' me this isn't you
[00:00.00] A couple weeks later, guess you were singin' a different tune
[00:00.00] You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
[00:00.00] They took you from us once, I guess they came back to finish you
[00:00.00] Cryin' my eyes out in the studio is difficult
[00:00.00] Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
[00:00.00] It took everything inside of me, not to scream at your funeral
[00:00.00] Sittin' in my chair, that person talkin' was pitiful
[00:00.00] I wish you were here, mama, but every time I picture you
[00:00.00] All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
[00:00.00] They found you on the floor, I could tell you felt hollow
[00:00.00] Gave everything you had, plus your life to them pill bottles
[00:00.00] You gave everything you had, plus your life to them pill bottles
[00:00.00] Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you're still watchin', why?
[00:00.00] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us here?
[00:00.00] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us? Oh
[00:00.00] Hey
[00:00.00] Sometimes I think about like...
[00:00.00] Sometimes I think about things like, you know
[00:00.00] When I'd have kids, I'm like...
[00:00.00] You won't be there, you know?
[00:00.00] You won't be there for any of that
[00:00.00] And I'll never get to see you again
[00:00.00] Sometimes I wish I would've just called you
[00:00.00] I wish I would have just picked up the phone
[00:00.00] Wish you were here
[00:00.00] I mean you should've been there for us
[00:00.00] You should have been here!
[00:00.00] Them pills got you, right?!
[00:00.00] Them pills got you, right?!
[00:00.00] I wish you were here
