Sober thoughts

[00:01.15] Intro: Max YB]

[00:07.90] Oh, nah-nah-nah-nah

[00:12.90] Nah-nah, ya-yeah

[00:37.89] Disciplinin' my habits, went distant on my attachments

[00:42.64] I had to turn my presence to absence

[00:44.89] Stuck in a cage, questionin' the hours and days

[00:47.15] Depressional phase, my tunnel vision startin' to fade

[00:49.64] I started to marry my thoughts, already engaged

[00:52.14] Not knowing my next move had me going insane

[00:54.90] Depending on alcohol to get me over the pain

[00:57.40] Praying my habit don't ever have me turn to cocaine

[01:00.39] I won't allow this temporary pain to turn to a stain

[01:03.88] I wanna live but my joy for life is stuck in the grave

[01:05.64] God I need you more than ever, I was hoping you came

[01:08.13] So used to holdin' shit in, it's kinda hard to explain

[01:10.65] Picasso the best way to put it

[01:12.88] Before you knew the meaning of it, you misunderstood it

[01:15.39] Far from perfect, did a lot of shit I knew I shouldn't

[01:17.90] Duckin' my demons but they comin' like a movin' bullet

[01:20.64] Shit, it's crazy out here, it's like I love it and I hate it out here

[01:24.40] Gotta be mentally stable out here, just to make it out here

[01:28.64] Never slippin', everyday I'm aware

[01:29.89] If I ain't got it, I'll go get it, and I'll make it appear

[01:32.14] Tough love, being assertive, that's the way that I care

[01:35.15] When I'm distant and I ignore you, then to me you ain't there

[01:37.65] When I erase you that's when you worry, replace yo ass in a hurry

[01:42.15] That's the truth, not a dare, nigga do not compare

[01:44.90] All this pain in me, I want it washed away

[01:47.14] I gotta keep faith in me, these niggas want me dead

[01:51.65] I gotta stay strong, stay strong

[01:57.65] I've been fightin' all my life, oh

[02:01.64] May God watch my soul

[02:04.89] Only people that think that I fell off is people who wasn't supportin' before the fame and the fortune

[02:09.89] My fanbase was already a force and

[02:12.64] I was sellin' out shows before the radio sources

[02:16.65] Meanin' the grind of independence what got me in it

[02:18.39] Not a co-sign or a mention and this is not fiction

[02:20.65] Now I'm feelin' attention from muhfuckers that once was dick-lickin', and pic-flickin' friendship

[02:25.90] And this isn't no damn fool

[02:27.89] I know the game so it's cool

[02:29.65] And when you play the game, play it by the rules, uh

[02:31.65] Mama ain't raise no coon, I know the difference between loved and used

[02:34.88] Life is just hugs and bruises, care and crew

[02:38.63] Fuck desire, my heart pump fire, ooh

[02:41.15] Don't inhale my fumes, I'm toxic, caged in like zoos

[02:44.39] Boxed in like boxin', in the studio locked in

[02:47.14] Man you couldn't walk a block in my shoes

[02:50.14] Not even my socks, shit

[02:52.65] Came from the bottom that's why I fuck with the top shit

[02:54.64] I'm talkin' 'bout that never, ever, ever in stock shit

[02:57.38] I don't pop shit, I speak knowledge, just call me a prophet

[03:00.64] And if you pay attention then you payin' homage

[03:03.64] Cheap jeans with paid pockets, this poundcake got these weight watchers weight watchin', uh

[03:08.65] I ain't stoppin' like Hov said

[03:10.90] Sit in front of the Bentley, with the doors out like bow-legs

[03:13.89] I hate a bitch with a fat ass and no legs

[03:16.64] I love a bitch with some crack pussy and dope head

[03:19.40] Broke bread with niggas, all I got was a thank you

[03:22.40] And you got some other niggas out here sayin' they made you, ha

[03:24.65] The game tryin' to erase you, got my foot on they necks

[03:27.89] You disrespect the tech I'll give you a facial, uh

[03:30.40] Apologies to my exes, and no this ain't my confessions

[03:33.40] Appreciate your time and investment, patience and effort

[03:36.39] Having ya'll was part of a blessin'

[03:38.14] Y'all all belong on the cover of Essence

[03:40.65] No hard feelings, no love lost

[03:42.39] No bad blood, your love is a bad drug

[03:44.40] But better to have love than no love

[03:46.89] I need a blunt, KorLeone, can you roll one?

[03:50.39] And smoke one?

[03:54.39] All this pain in me, I want it washed away

[03:55.91] I gotta keep faith in me, these niggas want me dead

[04:01.39] I gotta stay strong, stay strong

[04:05.65] I've been fightin' all my life, oh

[04:10.64] May God watch my soul, ah

[04:22.64] Oh, all these battles I've been fighting

[04:24.89] Ooh, all these battles I've been fighting

[04:29.40] I just gotta keep on goin' on, on and on, and on, ooh-oh