getting older

[00:10.89] I'm gettin' older, I think I'm agin' well

[00:16.14] I wish someone had told me I'd be doin' this by myself

[00:22.39] There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for

[00:28.14] But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door

[00:34.64] Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more

[00:40.14] Than anyone before (Anyone before)

[00:48.64] Too bad they're usually deranged

[00:53.39] Last week, I realized I crave pity

[00:57.89] When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse

[01:04.39] Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

[01:10.14] And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

[01:16.89] Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest

[01:21.64] I was still bein' ignored (Lyin' for attention, just to get neglection)

[01:31.39] Now we're estranged

[01:36.89] Things I once enjoyed

[01:43.39] Just keep me employed now

[01:49.39] Things I'm longing for

[01:55.14] Someday, I'll be bored of

[01:59.14] It's so weird

[02:10.14] That we care so much until we don't

[02:17.64] I'm gettin' older, I've got more on my shoulders

[02:22.14] But I'm gettin' better at admitting when I'm wrong

[02:28.39] I'm happier than ever, at least, that's my endeavor

[02:34.39] To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

[02:40.39] 'Cause, to be honest, I just wished the word I promised

[02:45.64] Would depend on what I'm givin' (Not on his permission)

[02:52.39] (Wasn't my decision) To be abused, mm

[03:01.14] Things I once enjoyed

[03:07.14] Just keep me employed now

[03:13.14] Things I'm longing for, mm

[03:19.14] Someday, I'll be bored of

[03:22.89] It's so weird

[03:34.14] That we care so much until we don't

[03:41.14] But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughin'

[03:46.39] For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine

[03:52.64] I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna

[03:58.14] Was too afraid to tell ya, but now, I think it's time