Getting Older

[00:14.81] I'm getting older

[00:16.31] I think I'm aging well

[00:17.31] I wish someone had told me, I'd be doing this by myself

[00:18.06] There's reasons that I'm thankful

[00:18.56] There's a lot I'm grateful for

[00:19.31] But it's different when a stranger's always waiting at your door

[00:19.81] Which is ironic

[00:20.31] 'Cause the strangers seem to want me more than anyone before (Anyone before)

[00:23.81] Too bad, they're usually deranged

[00:24.56] Last week, I realized I crave pity, when I retell a story

[00:25.06] I make everything sound worse

[00:25.81] Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

[00:26.31] And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

[00:26.81] Which is ironic

[00:27.31] Because when I wasn't honest, I was still being ignored (Lying for attention just to get neglection)

[00:30.56] Now we're estranged

[00:31.06] Things I once enjoyed

[00:31.56] Just keep me employed now

[00:31.81] Things I'm longing for, someday, I'll be bored of

[00:32.31] It's so weird

[00:32.81] That we care so much, until we don't

[00:33.56] I'm getting older

[00:34.06] I've got more on my shoulders

[00:34.31] But I'm getting better at admitting when I'm wrong

[00:34.81] I'm happier than ever

[00:35.31] At least that's my endeavor

[00:35.56] To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

[00:36.06] 'Cause to be honest

[00:38.56] I just wish that, what I promise would depend on what I'm given (Not on his permission, wasn't my decision)

[00:38.81] To be abused

[00:39.31] Things I once enjoyed

[00:39.81] Just keep me employed now

[00:40.31] Things I'm longing for, someday, I'll be bored of

[00:41.06] It's so weird

[00:41.56] That we care so much, until we don't

[00:44.06] But next week

[00:44.56] I hope I'm somewhere laughing, for anybody asking

[00:45.31] I promise I'll be fine

[00:45.81] I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna, was too afraid to tell ya, but now I think it's time