NF_-_Therapy_Session(256k)

[00:22.12] Yeah, I gotta say like a month ago

[00:25.59] I was talking to fans

[00:26.85] And one of them pulled me aside and said

[00:28.84] "We never met but I swear that you know who I am

[00:30.93] I been through a lot

[00:32.68] I don't know how to express it to people

[00:34.63] Don't think that I can but I got that Mansion CD on rotation

[00:37.62] That's real for me Nate, you do not understand"

[00:39.88] It's crazy for me

[00:41.38] Kids hit me up, say they slitting they wrists on the daily

[00:44.06] This music is more than you think

[00:45.38] Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining

[00:48.38] Hearing these parents, they telling their kids

[00:50.39] My music is violent, you gotta be kidding me

[00:52.88] I guess that your definition of violence and mine

[00:55.64] Is something that we look at differently

[00:57.38] How do you picture me, ah?

[00:58.89] Want me to smile, you want me to laugh

[01:01.38] You want me to walk in the stage with a smile on my face

[01:04.14] When I'm mad and put on a mask, for real though

[01:07.14] I mean, what you expect from me?

[01:08.89] I'm tryna do this respectfully

[01:10.38] They say that life is a race

[01:11.63] I knew my problems'll probably catch up eventually

[01:14.63] I do my best to be calm

[01:16.14] How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?

[01:19.13] That's just a glimpse to the stuff that gets sent to me

[01:21.13] These are the parts of my life that'll never see, woo

[01:24.04] I am aware it's aggressive

[01:25.79] I am not here for acceptance

[01:27.79] I don't know what you expect here

[01:29.54] But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session, huh?

[01:33.79] Therapy, therapy session

[01:41.80] Therapy, therapy session

[01:49.54] This girl at the show looked me in the face

[01:52.54] And told me her life's full of drama

[01:54.54] Said that her dad is abusive

[01:56.79] Apparently he likes to beat on her mama

[01:59.04] I got so angry inside

[02:00.79] I wanted to tell her to give me his number

[02:03.29] But what you gon' do with it, right?

[02:05.04] You gon' hit him up then he'll start hitting her harder

[02:07.75] That's real

[02:08.69] These kids, they come to my shows

[02:09.94] With tears in they eyes

[02:11.19] Imagine someone looking at you

[02:12.69] And saying your music's the reason that they are alive

[02:15.44] Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it

[02:17.19] This type of life isn't glamorous

[02:18.95] This ain't an act for the cameras

[02:20.44] You see me walk on these stages but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it

[02:24.69] I put it all in the open

[02:26.19] This is the way that I cope with all my emotion

[02:28.89] I'm taking pictures with thousands of people

[02:30.65] But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me

[02:33.14] I'm trying to deal with depression

[02:34.90] I'm trying to deal with the pressure

[02:36.39] How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message

[02:38.89] When I'm looking out at this crowd full of people I know I affected?

[02:42.64] Ah, I got some things in my life, I know I should let 'em go

[02:47.14] Let me jot it down, let me take a mental note

[02:50.89] I put it all in this microphone, think about that for a minute

[02:55.14] What is the point of this song, I'm just venting but what you expect from a therapy session?

[02:59.64] Therapy, therapy session

[03:08.14] Therapy, therapy session

[03:17.39] What you think about me

[03:19.31] That doesn't worry me

[03:21.06] I know I handle some things immaturely

[03:23.07] I know that I need to grow in maturity

[03:25.31] I ain't gon' walk on these stages in front of these people

[03:27.56] And act like I live my life perfectly

[03:30.06] That doesn't work for me

[03:31.06] Christian is not the definition of what perfect means

[03:34.56] I ain't the type to be quiet

[03:36.82] I ain't gon' sit here in silence

[03:38.56] If I wouldn't say what I say to your face

[03:40.81] Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private

[03:42.81] I am not lying

[03:44.06] People go off on my page and I'm trying to quit the replying

[03:47.06] But this is ridiculous

[03:48.31] I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing

[03:51.56] You want me to keep it a hundred? Okay, I'll keep it a hundred

[03:54.48] I see a whole lot of talking on socials

[03:56.47] But honestly, I don't see nothing in public

[03:58.98] I kinda love it, yeah

[04:01.40] "Why don't you write us some happy raps?

[04:03.31] That would be awesome

[04:04.57] All your music is moody and dark, Nate"

[04:07.51] Don't get me started

[04:11.20] You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?

[04:13.38] Listen to my verses

[04:14.39] This music is not just for people

[04:15.88] Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches

[04:18.64] I won't reject it

[04:20.13] I don't expect everyone to respect it

[04:21.88] I don't expect you to get my perspective

[04:24.13] What you expect from a therapy session?

[04:31.14] I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I'm doing

[04:39.39] I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with

[04:44.39] Something that I'm actually experiencing, this is real for me

[04:48.40] Like this is something that personally helps me as well

[04:51.89] I'm not confused about who gave me the gift

[04:54.13] God gave me the gift and he gave me the ability to do this

[04:57.37] And he also gave me this as an outlet

[04:59.11] And that's what music is for me

[05:01.01] When I feel something, whether it's anger

[05:02.75] Um, it's a passion about something, or frustration

[05:05.76] Like this is where I go, this is, that's the whole NFrealmusic thing man

[05:11.76] This is real for me, I need this, this is a therapy for me