It's Not The Same Anymore

[00:07.64] I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place

[00:11.89] Wow, I look so weird here

[00:14.88] My face has changed now

[00:16.52] It's a big shame

[00:24.02] So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth

[00:29.16] And it's not that rare for me to let myself down

[00:32.82] In a big way

[00:38.82] But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that

[00:44.56] It's not the same anymore

[00:48.20] I lost the joy in my face

[00:50.95] My life was simple before

[00:52.96] I should be happy, of course

[00:56.45] But things just got much harder

[00:58.95] Now it's just hard to ignore

[01:01.10] It's not the same anymore

[01:09.10] It's not the same anymore

[01:12.01] It's not the same, but, it's not a shame 'cause

[01:17.26] I spend a long time putting up with people

[01:21.00] Putting on my best face

[01:23.25] It's only normal when you stop things in the wrong way

[01:27.01] It's only four o'clock and still, it's been a long day

[01:31.26] I just wanna hit the hay

[01:33.15] People knocking on me like every day

[01:35.16] I'm tired of taking stress

[01:37.41] If only there could be another way

[01:39.41] I'm tired of feeling suppressed

[01:41.66] And when they want me the most

[01:43.92] I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do

[01:49.17] And I can't wait to hit the bed

[01:51.66] But tomorrow makes me scared

[01:53.81] 'Cause it's not the same anymore

[01:56.30] I lost the joy in my face

[02:00.06] My life was simple before

[02:02.31] I should be happy, of course (of course)

[02:06.06] But things just got much harder

[02:08.06] Now it's just hard to ignore

[02:10.56] It's not the same anymore (it's not the same)

[02:13.56] (It's not the same)

[02:15.55] (It's not the same)

[02:18.06] It's not the same anymore (it's not the same)

[02:21.81] (It's not the same)

[02:24.06] (It's not the same)

[02:37.72] I kept the feelings inside

[02:41.97] I open up when shit gets built up this high

[02:46.72] She makes it easy to cry

[02:50.21] The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise

[02:55.21] I miss the days when I was someone else

[02:59.46] I used to be so hungry

[03:01.96] Right now, my stomach's full of air

[03:05.21] And I've spent many months just hating on myself

[03:10.47] I can't keep wishing things will be different

[03:13.71] Or leaving problems on the shelf

[03:15.46] I wish I didn't need to get help

[03:18.87] But I do

[03:21.86] But I do

[03:36.61] I've been so hard on myself, yeah

[03:44.27] Even my family can tell

[03:46.91] And they barely saw what I felt

[03:49.42] I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else

[03:53.66] It's not the same

[03:57.80] (It's not the same)

[03:59.44] (It's not the same)

[04:01.19] It's not the same as before

[04:03.95] It's not the same anymore

[04:06.35] And it's fine because

[04:41.38] I've learned so much from before

[04:46.29] Now I'm not sure on advice

[04:48.54] There's no excuses at all

[04:50.54] No point in feeling upset

[04:52.53] Won't take my place on my floor

[04:54.54] I'll stand up straight like I'm tall

[04:58.53] It's up to me, no one else

[05:00.79] I'm doing this for myself

[05:02.54] It's not the same anymore

[05:05.78] It's better

[05:09.67] It got better

[05:11.81] It's not the same anymore

[05:13.81] It's better

[05:19.57] Yeah, yeah