21 The Remorse

[00:23.11] Yeah (Huh)

[00:29.17] Yeah

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[00:34.40] Look, me and Lil Sandra bagging CDs in the bubble wrap

[00:37.93] People recognize me from the TV, but I'm done with that

[00:40.64] People don't wanna see me succeed, this shit come with that

[00:43.15] Even when I come back, I don't know if it's me that's gonna be coming back

[00:46.65] Soon as I left, I had to make peace with that

[00:48.65] Dropped out of school 'cause nobody was teaching that

[00:51.15] The Best Western is where a nigga was sleeping at

[00:54.15] Daemen College booking me to pull up and speak the facts

[00:56.64] Even if they make a movie 'bout us, this shit'll be hard to re-enact

[01:00.15] Dislocated shoulder, it's hard to be always reaching back

[01:02.90] All these IOU's, it's hard for me to be keeping track

[01:05.67] Friends that dedicated they life to just keepin' me intact

[01:08.15] Hard to pay 40, pay Noel, pay Niko back

[01:10.92] All the nights I needed to vent to someone and CJ sat

[01:13.67] All the nights Chubbs was pulling up where I need him at

[01:16.40] All the times Mark was making sure that my luggage packed

[01:19.15] Or times he had to double back (Oh-oh, oh-oh)

[01:20.94] I mean, even with his salary, you can't put no prices on that

[01:23.44] There is no salary cap, there is no payin' him back, for real

[01:29.20] I wonder what it could've been if I had snakes in the mix

[01:31.94] Actually, I never wanna know 'cause we made it like this

[01:34.68] Shots gotta fly either way, now I make it or miss

[01:36.94] Overtime hours all good, we take it in shifts

[01:39.93] What would you do if it wasn't this? That's a hard one

[01:42.44] The finish line is where I like to pull up and start from

[01:45.21] Pain is just a place that I go to get the bars from

[01:47.93] Anxiety's a drug that I use to get the job done

[01:50.45] Delusional's a space I like to think that I'm far from

[01:53.19] My son is the one thing I hate to be apart from

[01:55.93] Bet against me, don't know where they getting the odds from

[01:58.68] I know that when it's done, I'm going wherever God's from

[02:01.44] But I still don't know where I get the calm from

[02:04.44] (Where I get the calm from) Yeah

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[02:05.83] (Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-ooh)

[02:11.83] Yeah-yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah

[02:16.82] Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

[02:24.74] Woah, woah-woah, woah, woah, woah

[02:28.22] Yeah (Woah, woah)

[02:31.27] Yeah

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[02:33.41] Look, gotta hold my head high with two dry eyes

[02:36.67] I told you everything is fine, dawg, but I lied

[02:39.31] I be tryna draw the line, but it's a fine line

[02:42.07] And I'm drownin' out the noise from the sideline

[02:44.81] Sometime it's louder than the voice I got in my mind

[02:47.32] I can't even hear myself when I get quiet time

[02:50.07] Like, how they tellin' me I'm done, when I'm in my prime?

[02:52.82] They've been tryna push a narrative since '09

[02:55.57] And they even had my ass convinced a couple times

[02:58.33] But that ain't even the half, I had tougher times

[03:01.09] Only look for sympathy inside my mother's eyes

[03:04.06] And it's whatever with them niggas on the other side

[03:06.32] We got problems we could never really put aside

[03:08.82] I cracked the door for us all, put my foot inside

[03:11.81] I tried to kill them boys with kindness, but they wouldn't die

[03:14.59] So now I kill 'em all for acting like they couldn't die (Yeah)

[03:19.43] My hard work doesn't just pay off, it pays all the family debts off

[03:22.75] I'm taking heads off, Future out here like Irving Azoff

[03:25.76] Houses paid off, label paid off

[03:27.51] My soul for the money wasn't the trade-off

[03:29.53] Unlike most of you boys that fade off

[03:31.76] I feel guilty taking some days off

[03:33.76] Please don't google my net worth, the numbers are way off

[03:36.52] I mean, if you comparin' it to what I really made off with

[03:39.01] I'm more like Bernie with all the earnings that they came off

[03:42.76] Trust me it was nothin' light, holmes

[03:44.26] They tried to give me a slice of the pie, and I took the knife home

[03:47.28] I know you love me

[03:48.26] Can't picture bein' a hubby, finger too stubby to fit a ring on

[03:51.51] Unless Kawhi wanna run it back

[03:53.26] Other than that, the strings'll be unattached

[03:55.52] Certified Lover Boy, I'm not the one for cuddling or none of that

[03:58.76] Y'all music gets watered down, when you love 'em back

[04:01.67] And you know what I'm on, blowing past ya, owning masters

[04:05.92] Said you're like a father figure to me, but now daddy's not around so I'm a bastard

[04:09.68] Oh, of course, the only villain that show remorse when I owe you more

[04:13.17] Soft spot for all the ones that came before, I can't ignore it

[04:16.42] I'm always tryna rekindle

[04:18.19] From the bottom to the top, man, what's it like in the middle?

[04:20.67] From the lemon faced radio host that love to be bitter

[04:23.67] To my dogs in the game who wasn't pick of the litter

[04:26.18] For the young Gs out here starting from the beginning

[04:28.92] Nobody praying for you when you winning, don't forget it (Winning, don't forget it)

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[04:34.03] Woah, woah, woah-woah

[04:36.36] Woah, woah

[04:38.11] Woah, woah-woah, woah

[04:41.86] Woah, woah, ah

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[04:45.11] Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

[04:49.60] Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

[04:54.61] Yeah (Ooh, yeah)

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[04:59.62] Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

[05:07.86] Hard when it starts to fade away

[05:12.88] It's hard when the memories start to fade away

[05:17.37] Said its hard when the memories start to fade away

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[05:21.63] (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

[05:37.21] (Ooh, ooh) So beautiful

[05:42.49] Yeah, yeah, yeah