Friend, leader

[00:16.65] There will be no soft sounds this time, no arms, not mine at least

[00:24.40] Should've expected this, I guess, no "shh" can soothe your beast

[00:32.41] And it was my problem once, that violence inside your eyes

[00:39.90] Bright red and high with death and pie, and rage that never dies

[00:47.90] And I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, but never you

[00:56.65] 'Cause you were just a messed up kid

[01:00.15] Who'd step in it, get scared and sit

[01:03.89] And pray for goats and gods who would know what to forbid

[01:10.65] And when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make it worse

[01:18.15] And maybe I deserve that hurt

[01:22.15] Destruction of my universe

[01:24.91] So if you've gotta beat somebody up don't make it her

[01:31.65] I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore

[01:39.40] I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader

[01:46.15] Not a leader

[01:49.66] Not a leader, friend

[02:14.14] No more attempts to make you see, I tried, he succeeded, oh well

[02:21.40] But what I can say to a girl who'd play with a noose of excuses until

[02:28.92] Her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke, and crack goes the rope pulled true

[02:36.66] I know enough about doubt and hating myself to tell that you now know it too

[02:44.15] And I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, including you

[02:52.15] But you were perfect as you were

[02:55.90] All angled out, a blinding blur

[02:59.66] So bright and beautiful, and clever, yeah for sure

[03:06.15] But when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make a mess

[03:13.90] And now it's my turn to confess

[03:18.15] I wasn't there, I didn't guess

[03:20.89] That you were slipping, 'til you tripped right off the edge

[03:27.16] I'm sorry I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore

[03:35.15] I'm sorry I messed up, I'm not a leader, not a leader, not a leader

[03:48.15] (I'm not a leader anymore, no more)

[03:53.92] Said a thousand words but they never helped

[03:56.66] I hid my scars from you out of shame

[03:59.41] Took up the cause, yeah I took the helm

[04:02.65] But I'm not the only one who's changed

[04:05.40] I knew you first, I knew you best

[04:08.40] I wish I'd stopped it way back then

[04:11.15] When things were bad, but they still made sense

[04:13.90] When we were kids, when we were friends

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