Plot Twist
[00:05.00] Plot Twist
[00:10.24] From Yuuta Takemoto of Honey and Clover:
[00:13.25] I’d been wondering all this time, whether there's any meaning to a failed love.
[00:18.50] Is something that will disappear, the same as something that never existed?
[00:23.74] We have a list of names but we’d rather not mention them.
[00:28.75] Let’s call them
[00:29.25] Teddy Bear,
[00:30.50] Ferris Wheel,
[00:31.25] December,
[00:32.00] Budapest,
[00:32.75] Wong Kar Wai,
[00:33.75] Café Mocha with Mint.
[00:37.74] This is no character assassination.
[00:40.50] Or a pity party like the ones on television.
[00:43.00] No insinuation.
[00:44.00] No accusation.
[00:44.99] No degradation.
[00:45.75] And no.
[00:46.50] This is not some form of ego-tripping masturbation.
[00:49.74] Just two people having certain declarations about…
[00:52.50] You, who did not love me back,
[00:57.25] On your 15th birthday, I gave you a teddy bear to keep you company during lonely nights.
[01:02.49] In return, you gave me fire like it was the last piece of warmth I am ever allowed to feel from you.
[01:08.50] I have learned to find beauty in the inches of my skin where you left scorch marks of your name.
[01:14.76] I was a blank canvass before I met you, and despite the days I spent trying to erase you from my body, I am now a walking piece of art.
[01:22.75] You, who did not love me back,
[01:25.00] I still remember how afraid I used to be of overpass bridges, of tall buildings, how I cringe at the thought of riding a helicopter, but remember that day?
[01:35.50] When for the the first time, I rode a barrio fiesta Ferris wheel with you and, God, I didn’t know how wonderful it is to not be land-locked.
[01:43.49] You were the biggest fear I ever conquered;
[01:47.50] I’m not sorry to have wished to be conquered back.
[01:50.25] You, who did not love me back,
[01:52.51] I travelled hundreds of miles to a strange city so I could see you that one night in December.
[01:57.99] I promised I would be braver, to walk the unfamiliar streets like I have never feared the dark.
[02:03.25] But you had eyes that made it impossible for me to go through that night without grasping your hand, and praying you will never let go.
[02:13.24] P.S. I wish you well on your wedding day.
[02:17.00] You, who did not love me back,
[02:20.01] I imagine you now, sitting outside a coffee shop in Budapest, reading Susan Sontag or John Updike.
[02:27.25] You regular Peter.
[02:28.25] I imagine you just forgot about us mortals, us tattooed wrists.
[02:32.26] I imagine that our lives just forked somewhere in the road, but you are somewhere.
[02:37.25] We survive telling ourselves you are still somewhere.
[02:40.50] I no longer wish to be loved back, I just sometimes wish you were still here.
[02:46.49] You, who did not love me back,
[02:48.99] You made me listen to all your favorite songs, made me see all your favorite films.
[02:54.00] Chungking Express, 1994 by Wong Kar-Wai, Right then I knew that you were something.
[02:59.75] That it would take great restraint to keep me from falling.
[03:02.75] But just as I drowned in the vast universe you welcomed me into, you chose to abandon me.
[03:09.99] I guess that’s how I learned how to swim.
[03:12.74] You, who did not love me back,
[03:14.50] I will always remember those October nights.
[03:19.50] The damp taxi ride to your home, the warm bus trip on the way to mine.
[03:24.26] This is how I end things, I thought.
[03:26.99] Gave you CDs and a large cup of coffee.
[03:30.00] Check for the last time if you could see me.
[03:32.50] It’s funny, I how still order your favorite: cafe mocha with mint.
[03:37.26] And it’s amazing how I get to point at each scar with a joke now.
[03:42.50] When you never were.
[03:43.75] You never are.
[03:45.50] But you are no longer my book
[03:48.25] and I’m no longer just your chapter.
[03:49.75] I am more than just a plot twist,
[03:51.74] and you are not my main character.
[03:54.24] Our story is over but mine still goes on.
[03:57.74] You, who did not love us back,
[03:59.75] You, who did not love us back,
[04:01.52] Let me mend the cracks you have left me.
[04:03.76] Let me take the guilt off your shoulders.
[04:06.26] These are mine.
[04:07.76] Let me immerse in the quiet of your absence, I have never heard my own music so loudly.
[04:13.25] I am sorry.
[04:13.75] I never meant to assign you power you did not vie for.
[04:17.26] Never meant to make you the villain.
[04:19.24] Now I’m certain, we just happen to be in two different paths, meant to cross but not to last.
[04:25.25] Forgive me for planting grave marks where you left seeds.
[04:28.76] I was so angry to see the blooming flowers in the trail you left behind.
[04:33.50] I turned unwilling to unkind.
[04:35.25] I made distance just another word for cruel.
[04:38.26] Branded myself a fool for seeing paradise in a meadow.
[04:42.25] Called myself brave for basking in my sorrow.
[04:45.50] Called you a coward for refusing to jump.
[04:48.75] When the truth is this:
[04:52.00] we all have cliffs we need to leap from and I just wasn’t yours.
[04:58.76] I just wasn’t yours.
[05:02.25] But Teddy Bear,
[05:03.00] Ferris Wheel,
[05:04.50] December,
[05:05.77] Budapest,
[05:06.77] Wong Kar-Wai,
[05:08.00] Cafe Mocha with Mint:
[05:09.75] Look at all the love I have saved for another.
