Cal Scruby - my anxiety

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[00:14.91] I find it hard to describe my anxiety

[00:16.88] Feel like my heart and my mind got a rivalry

[00:18.94] Feel like my thoughts and emotions are fighting inside of me

[00:21.40] I gotta get this shit out of me

[00:22.90] I feel like forest I'm running from everything

[00:24.91] I never saw that shit in its entirety

[00:26.90] If you need someone to get something

[00:28.41] 90% done and quit on it, you should just hire me

[00:29.40] I'm feeling closer to death

[00:32.40] I feel a hole in my chest

[00:34.16] Feel like I'm stuck underwater

[00:35.90] Feel like I'm holding my breath

[00:37.63] Like it's the only one left

[00:38.91] Nobody know I'm depressed

[00:39.91] Even the people that know me the best

[00:41.90] I call my momma, she told me the rest

[00:44.15] I only get out of bed to get more cigarettes, yeah

[00:46.40] I've been so close I can taste it

[00:46.88] I've been so far I've been patient

[00:50.16] I take a bar and get wasted

[00:51.68] Part of my brain is erased when I got to Mars in a spaceship

[00:53.39] Its written all over my face and no one relates

[00:56.16] I don't know how long I can take it

[00:58.66] You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

[01:00.89] Thats an alright imitation, yeah

[01:03.66] Is someone coming to save me?

[01:05.43] I'm faded it don't even phase me

[01:07.18] I've had a hater thats showing me love

[01:08.91] And I've had a lover betray me

[01:10.66] I've had a lot of lessons, still got a lot of questions

[01:13.41] Still don't got any answers

[01:15.15] Eat your veggies, pray for a lotta blessings

[01:16.42] Die from like twenty cancers

[01:18.16] Thats why I'm taking these drugs

[01:20.41] Thats why I'm up till the morning

[01:21.91] Shot, after shot, after shot, I can't stop it I'm zoning

[01:24.66] Shrugging like Jordan did playing against Portland

[01:26.65] Still can't afford all the shit that I need

[01:28.40] I get to anxious when I hit the weed

[01:30.43] I take a pill and I'm feeling relieved

[01:32.40] I take another, I triple the speed

[01:34.90] I've been so close I can taste it

[01:36.66] I've been so far I've been patient

[01:38.16] I take a bar and get wasted

[01:39.65] Part of my brain is erased when I got to Mars in a spaceship

[01:42.41] Its written all over my face and no one relates

[01:44.90] I don't know how long I can take it

[01:46.40] You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

[01:47.90] Thats an alright imitation, yeah

[01:51.15] I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think

[02:00.90] I'm loosing touch if I'm touching a screen

[02:02.92] One minute I think I love everybody

[02:04.66] And then I'm like "Fuck everything"

[02:06.40] I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think

[02:08.90] I'm loosing touch if I'm touching a screen

[02:10.91] One minute I think I love everybody

[02:13.13] And then I'm like "Fuck everything"

[02:14.67] On a highway to hell, or a stairway to heaven

[02:17.65] And I'm stuck in the middle, I can't make a decision

[02:21.89] I don't think I'm suicidal, but if I was, I won't admit it

[02:26.15] Like I'd be okay with dying, if I'm not the one who did it

[02:30.67] I've been so close I can taste it

[02:32.15] I've been so far I've been patient

[02:33.65] I take a bar and get wasted

[02:35.14] Part of my brain is erased when I got to Mars in a spaceship

[02:38.16] Its written all over my face and no one relates

[02:39.89] I don't know how long I can take it

[02:42.39] You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it

[02:44.16] Thats an alright imitation, yeah