Im not okay Citizen soldier

[00:01.25] "I'm Not Okay"

[00:05.48] Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud

[00:11.23] But I built walls so high so they never even make a sound

[00:18.24] It's a mask, it's a lie, it's the only home I've ever known

[00:25.24] 'Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone

[00:34.26] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[00:41.48] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[00:48.48] The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

[00:53.74] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

[00:55.48] You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

[00:59.23] I'm not okay

[01:09.23] I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof

[01:13.73] That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

[01:23.25] My life's invisible abuse, I'm either judged or have to hide

[01:28.99] The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive

[01:38.99] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[01:46.24] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[01:52.98] The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

[01:56.73] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

[02:00.24] You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

[02:06.48] I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell

[02:13.48] But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself

[02:20.89] To myself

[02:25.14] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[02:32.40] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[02:39.42] I'm not okay, I'm not okay

[02:44.39] I'm never safe, it's not a phase

[02:46.90] If I finally break would you still stay?

[02:53.15] Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud