Amazarashi - The Reason I Wanted to Die

[00:21.90] The reason I wanted to die, was that seagulls were squawking down by the wharf.

[00:33.40] They floated off at the mercy of the waves.

[00:39.90] Peck away at my past, too, before you fly off.

[00:45.89] The reason I wanted to die, was that our apricot tree blossomed on my birthday.

[00:56.64] When I dozed off in its dappled sunlight, I wondered if I could join all the dead bugs and return to dust.

[01:08.65] Peppermint candy. The lamplight of a fishing harbor.

[01:11.29] A rusted arch bridge. A discarded bicycle.

[01:14.53] In front of a stove in a wooden station building, but there's nowhere my heart can embark.

[01:20.54] Today was exactly the same as yesterday.

[01:23.29] If you want to change tomorrow you have to change today!

[01:26.54] I get that. I get it. But still.

[01:31.54] The reason I wanted to die, was that my heart had become hollow.

[01:43.28] The reason I cry about how unsatisfied I am, is surely because I'm wishing for fulfillment.

[02:17.54] The reason I wanted to die, was that my shoelaces had come untied.

[02:29.04] I was never really that good at re-tying them.

[02:35.43] My relationships with others are the same way, too.

[02:41.18] The reason I wanted to die, was that a teenager was staring right at me.

[02:53.18] And now I'm prostrated atop my bed, apologizing to my younger self.

[03:03.93] The dim light of the computer. The ambient noise from the floors above.

[03:10.18] A bird-caged boy, plugging his ears to block out the interphone chime.

[03:15.93] I'm fighting with an enemy I can't even see like I'm Don Quixote in this 10x10 bedroom.

[03:21.93] And in the end, what I'm fighting for is a truly unseemly thing.

[03:26.93] The reason I wanted to die, was that I was called a cold-hearted person.

[03:38.68] The reason I cry that I long to be loved, is that can't unlearn the warmth of another person's touch.

[04:13.68] The reason I wanted to die, was that you smile so beautifully.

[04:24.82] The reason I can't stop thinking about death, must be that I take living too seriously.

[04:39.08] The reason I wanted to die, was that I still hadn't met you yet!

[04:50.72] If the world has people like you in it, then I like the world a little bit more.

[05:02.48] If the world has people like you in it, then I have a little bit more hope for the world.