Brutal

[00:12.78] I want it to be, like, messy

[00:21.15] I'm so insecure, I think

[00:23.47] That I'll die before I drink

[00:25.51] And I'm so caught up in the news

[00:27.28] Of who likes me and who hates you

[00:29.05] And I'm so tired that I might

[00:30.83] Quit my job, start a new life

[00:33.14] And they'd all be so disappointed

[00:35.17] 'Cause who am I, if not exploited?

[00:37.20] And I'm so sick of 17

[00:38.71] Where's my fucking teenage dream?

[00:40.76] If someone tells me one more time

[00:42.80] "Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry

[00:44.83] And I don't stick up for myself

[00:46.87] I'm anxious and nothing can help

[00:48.64] And I wish I'd done this before

[00:50.41] And I wish people liked me more

[00:52.18] All I did was try my best

[00:54.22] This the kind of thanks I get?

[00:56.26] Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)

[01:00.06] They say these are the golden years

[01:02.08] But I wish I could disappear

[01:04.11] Ego crush is so severe

[01:06.14] God, it's brutal out here

[01:11.71] (Yeah!)

[01:15.53] I feel like no one wants me

[01:17.31] And I hate the way I'm perceived

[01:19.58] I only have two real friends

[01:21.36] And lately, I'm a nervous wreck

[01:23.13] 'Cause I love people I don't like

[01:25.41] And I hate every song I write

[01:27.20] And I'm not cool and I'm not smart

[01:29.46] And I can't even parallel park

[01:31.24] All I did was try my best

[01:33.01] This the kind of thanks I get?

[01:35.04] Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)

[01:38.85] They say these are the golden years

[01:40.86] But I wish I could disappear

[01:42.62] Ego crush is so severe

[01:44.91] God, it's brutal out here

[01:50.48] (Yeah! Just having a really good time)

[02:03.15] Got a broken ego, broken heart

[02:13.02] (It's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)

[02:13.77] And God, I don't even know where to start