The Search

[00:04.89] "The Search"

[00:36.81] Hey Nate,

[00:37.82] How's life?

[00:38.82] I don't know,

[00:39.82] It's alright

[00:40.57] I've been dealin' with some things like

[00:41.83] Every human being

[00:42.61] And really didn't sleep much

[00:43.86] Last night (Last night)

[00:44.86] I'm sorry

[00:45.87] That's fine

[00:46.62] I just think I need

[00:47.39] A little me time

[00:48.65] I just think I need

[00:49.44] A little free time

[00:50.44] Little break from the shows

[00:51.44] And the bus rides

[00:52.45] Yeah (Bus rides)

[00:53.20] Last year

[00:53.24] I had a breakdown

[00:54.52] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost,

[00:55.52] Gettin' too loud

[00:56.52] Had to see a therapist

[00:57.52] And I found out

[00:58.52] Somethin' funny's going on

[00:59.52] Up in my house

[01:00.54] Yeah, started thinkin'

[01:01.07] Maybe I should move out

[01:02.58] You know, pack my cart,

[01:03.58] Take a new route

[01:04.58] Clean up my yard,

[01:05.59] Get the noose out

[01:06.60] Hang up my heart,

[01:07.60] Let it air out

[01:08.10] (Air out)

[01:08.85] I've been searchin'

[01:09.85] What does that mean, Nate?

[01:10.85] I've been learning

[01:11.85] Grabbin' my keepsakes,

[01:12.86] Leavin' my burdens

[01:13.88] Well, I brought a few with me

[01:14.88] I'm not perfect

[01:15.89] Lookin' at the view like

[01:16.89] This concerns me

[01:17.89] Pickin' up the cues, right?

[01:18.89] I'm quite nervous

[01:19.89] Hate it when I lose sight,

[01:20.64] Life gets blurry

[01:21.65] And things might hurt me

[01:22.41] It's probably

[01:22.94] Gonna be a long journey,

[01:23.70] But hey! (But hey!)

[01:24.98] It's worth it though

[01:25.98] Cold world out there,

[01:26.98] Kids, grab your coats

[01:28.01] Been a minute, I know,

[01:29.02] Now I'm back to roam

[01:30.02] Lookin' for the antidote

[01:31.02] To crack the code

[01:32.02] Pretty vivid;

[01:32.52] I admit it,

[01:33.02] I'm in classic mode

[01:34.06] Don't need pity

[01:34.38] Given to me

[01:35.13] But I can't condone

[01:36.13] Talkin' down to me,

[01:36.88] I'ma have to crack your nose

[01:37.88] For crackin' jokes

[01:38.63] I'm lookin' for the map to hope,

[01:39.88] You seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.89] Been makin'

[01:41.16] A whole lot of changes

[01:42.67] Wrote a song about that,

[01:43.42] You should play it

[01:44.67] I get scared

[01:45.17] When I walk on these stages

[01:46.17] I look at the crowd

[01:46.93] And see so many faces, yeah

[01:48.68] That's when I start

[01:49.44] To get anxious

[01:50.70] That's when my thoughts

[01:51.45] Can be dangerous

[01:52.70] That's when I put on my make-up

[01:53.96] And drown in self-hatred

[01:54.96] Forget what I'm saying,

[01:55.97] And...

[01:57.47] Where'd the beat go?

[01:58.49] Oh,

[01:59.24] Ain't that somethin'?

[02:00.25] Drums came in,

[02:01.00] You ain't see that comin'

[02:02.26] Hands on my head,

[02:03.01] Can't tell me nothin'

[02:04.01] Got a taste of the fame,

[02:04.79] Had to pump my stomach

[02:06.30] Throw it back up

[02:07.05] Like I don't want it

[02:08.34] Wipe my face,

[02:09.09] Clean up my vomit

[02:10.35] OCD,

[02:11.10] Tryna push my buttons

[02:12.10] I said don't touch it,

[02:13.10] Now y'all done it

[02:14.35] I can be critical,

[02:14.85] Never typical

[02:15.86] Intricate with every syllable,

[02:16.86] I'm a criminal

[02:17.86] Intimate, but never political,

[02:18.87] Pretty visual

[02:19.89] Even if you hate it,

[02:20.64] I'll make it feel

[02:21.17] Like you're in it though

[02:21.71] You call me what you wanna,

[02:22.46] But never call me forgettable

[02:23.68] Leave you deep in thought,

[02:24.69] I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.71] Way that I been thinkin'

[02:26.71] This cinematic is beautiful

[02:27.71] Man, I don't know

[02:28.25] If I'm makin' movies

[02:29.00] Or music videos (videos, videos)

[02:31.01] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:32.01] Doesn't mean much though

[02:33.01] When your health declines

[02:34.01] See, we've all got somethin'

[02:35.01] That we trapped inside

[02:36.02] That we try to suffocate,

[02:37.02] You know, hopin' it dies

[02:38.02] Try to hold it underwater

[02:39.02] But it always survives

[02:40.03] Then it comes up out of nowhere

[02:41.03] Like an evil surprise

[02:42.04] Then it hovers over you

[02:43.04] To tell you millions of lies

[02:44.04] You don't relate to that?

[02:44.79] Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:46.04] The point I'm makin'

[02:46.58] Is the mind is a powerful place

[02:48.06] And what you feed it

[02:48.56] Can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.82] It's pretty cool, right?

[02:50.59] Yeah,

[02:51.09] But it's not always safe

[02:51.84] Just hang with me,

[02:52.59] This'll only take a moment, OK?

[02:53.84] Just think about it for a second,

[02:54.87] If you look at your face

[02:56.14] Every day when you get up

[02:56.89] And think you'll never be great

[02:57.90] You'll never be great —

[02:58.90] Not because you're not,

[02:59.45] But the hate

[02:59.97] Will always find a way

[03:00.72] To cut you up

[03:01.22] And murder your faith (Woo!)

[03:02.01] I am developin',

[03:02.76] Take a look at the benefits

[03:04.28] Nothin' to meddle with,

[03:05.03] I can never be delicate

[03:06.28] Am I even relevant?

[03:07.03] That depends how you measure it

[03:08.04] Take a measurement,

[03:08.54] Then bag it up

[03:09.06] And give me the evidence

[03:10.11] It's pretty evident;

[03:10.86] Dependable can never be tentative

[03:11.86] I'm a gentleman,

[03:12.61] Depending on

[03:12.92] If I think you're genuine

[03:13.91] Pretty elegant

[03:14.65] But not afraid to tell you

[03:15.43] To get a grip

[03:16.20] Proper etiquette,

[03:16.70] I keep it to myself

[03:17.17] When I celebrate, ah!

[03:18.93] It's that time again

[03:19.94] Better grab your balloons

[03:20.94] And invite your friends

[03:22.19] Seatbelts back on,

[03:22.94] Yeah, strap 'em in

[03:23.96] Look at me, everybody,

[03:25.00] I'm smilin' big

[03:25.99] On a road right now

[03:27.00] That I can't predict

[03:28.00] Tell me "Tone that down",

[03:29.01] But I can't resist

[03:30.01] Y'all know that sound,

[03:30.79] Better raise your fists

[03:31.79] The search begins

[03:32.54] I'm back,

[03:33.04] So enjoy the trip, huh (Huh, huh)