Brutal

[00:13.32] I want it to be, like, messy

[00:21.64] I'm so insecure, I think

[00:23.39] That I'll die before I drink

[00:25.41] And I'm so caught up in the news

[00:27.42] Of who likes me and who hates you

[00:29.42] And I'm so tired that I might

[00:31.17] Quit my job, start a new life

[00:33.19] And they'd all be so disappointed

[00:35.19] 'Cause who am I, if not exploited?

[00:36.96] And I'm so sick of 17

[00:38.96] Where's my fucking teenage dream?

[00:40.97] If someone tells me one more time

[00:42.74] "Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry

[00:44.74] And I don't stick up for myself

[00:46.75] I'm anxious and nothing can help

[00:48.51] And I wish I'd done this before

[00:50.53] And I wish people liked me more

[00:52.53] All I did was try my best

[00:54.55] This the kind of thanks I get?

[00:56.56] Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)

[01:00.31] They say these are the golden years

[01:02.25] But I wish I could disappear

[01:04.26] Ego crush is so severe

[01:06.02] God, it's brutal out here

[01:11.54] (Yeah!)

[01:15.80] I feel like no one wants me

[01:17.57] And I hate the way I'm perceived

[01:19.82] I only have two real friends

[01:21.58] And lately, I'm a nervous wreck

[01:23.59] 'Cause I love people I don't like

[01:25.35] And I hate every song I write

[01:27.35] And I'm not cool and I'm not smart

[01:29.37] And I can't even parallel park

[01:31.38] All I did was try my best

[01:33.13] This the kind of thanks I get?

[01:35.14] Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)

[01:38.90] They say these are the golden years

[01:40.91] But I wish I could disappear

[01:42.92] Ego crush is so severe

[01:44.93] God, it's brutal out here

[01:50.70] (Yeah! Just having a really good time)

[02:03.77] Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)

[02:13.05] And God, I don't even know where to start