Understand

[00:02.24] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:04.25] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:09.27] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:11.78] Just broke my heart in two

[00:13.78] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:16.28] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:18.54] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:20.80] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:23.06] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:25.57] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:27.83] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:30.08] And when I started making sensе

[00:31.34] I found that I had reached the end

[00:32.59] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:33.60] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:34.60] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:36.60] You're not shit

[00:37.36] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:41.13] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.64] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[00:47.90] And different flavored pills I hid

[00:50.42] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[00:53.43] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[00:54.93] I said that

[00:55.93] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:57.94] I wanted to hold your hand

[01:00.45] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:05.22] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.74] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:09.74] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:12.25] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.51] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:15.51] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:17.27] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:19.02] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:20.28] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:21.53] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:24.04] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:26.05] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:28.56] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:30.82] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:33.08] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:36.10] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.36] I said before I'm not okay

[01:40.62] But you don't listen anyway

[01:43.13] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:45.40] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:47.66] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[01:49.92] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:52.17] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[01:55.69] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:57.20] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:00.21] (So I'll say)

[02:01.71] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:04.48] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:06.23] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:09.50] (So I'll say)

[02:10.50] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:12.52] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:14.77] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.55] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:22.06] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:24.06] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:27.08] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:29.09] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:31.35] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:33.36] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:38.14] And you know I'll play along you

[02:40.66] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:43.17] And now you're dead to me effectively

[02:45.18] Removed yourself outside my dream