discombobulated

[00:14.76] Life has got me feeling discombobulated, in place of common phrases

[00:19.81] All I say are awkward statements in every conversation

[00:23.25] Often sitting cautious, pacing, dropping frames in talks with strangers

[00:27.82] Making observations, in that awful cadence

[00:31.10] I've been rather quiet since a sophomore

[00:33.89] Every time my voice comes out my mouth, it sounds like nails on a chalkboard

[00:38.99] Saving pieces shattered as my age increases faster

[00:42.39] I can make my thesis matter if I learn to fuckin' talk more

[00:46.33] But that's just an inkling, small talk is always shrinking

[00:50.12] And this ship will always sink until we fill in all the gaps

[00:53.80] I've made some dumb decisions and evaded inhibitions

[00:57.84] Digging graves for my ambitions just to make it on the map

[01:01.37] Which seems ironic at present, given my title

[01:05.40] Periodically stepping through this recital

[01:08.18] I've practiced a thousand times, messaging with my idols

[01:12.47] And definitely sounding like a dumbass when I try tho

[01:17.15] I treat a soundcloud page like a diary

[01:20.97] And push away all the people who inspire me-sorry

[01:25.12] So afraid of the person I should try to be

[01:29.13] And it seems, by now, they should kinda be sorry