understand

[00:00.34] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:01.94] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:04.06] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:08.59] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:12.04] Just broke my heart in two

[00:13.37] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:16.31] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:18.43] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:20.56] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:22.95] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:25.34] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:27.46] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:29.89] And when I started making sensе

[00:31.20] I found that I had reached the end

[00:32.30] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:33.63] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:34.72] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:36.57] You're not shit

[00:37.38] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:41.12] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.63] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[00:48.02] And different flavored pills I hid

[00:50.42] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[00:52.81] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[00:54.93] I said that

[00:55.73] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:57.59] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:59.99] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:04.51] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.70] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:10.09] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:12.21] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.34] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:15.66] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:17.51] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:19.10] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:20.16] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:21.50] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:23.60] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:26.25] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:28.38] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:30.77] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:33.17] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:35.55] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.22] I said before I'm not okay

[01:40.34] But you don't listen anyway

[01:42.74] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:45.13] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:47.52] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[01:49.64] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:51.79] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[01:53.92] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:56.55] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:00.80] (So I'll say)

[02:01.59] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:05.85] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:06.64] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:10.36] (So I'll say)

[02:10.63] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:12.48] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:14.61] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:18.86] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:21.80] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:23.92] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:26.84] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:28.97] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:30.83] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:33.22] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:38.00] And you know I'll play along you

[02:40.66] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:43.05] And now you're dead to me effectively

[02:45.22] Removed yourself outside my dream