getting older

[00:11.25] I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well

[00:16.25] I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself

[00:22.49] There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for

[00:28.25] But it's different when a stranger's always waiting at your door

[00:35.00] Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more

[00:40.24] Than anyone before (anyone before)

[00:48.23] Too bad they're usually deranged

[00:54.00] Last week, I realized I crave pity

[00:58.25] When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse

[01:05.00] Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

[01:10.25] And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

[01:17.23] Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest, I was still being ignored

[01:25.00] (Lying for attention just to get neglection)

[01:32.25] Now we're estranged

[01:37.53] Things I once enjoyed (ah-ah)

[01:43.52] Just keep me employed now

[01:49.53] Things I'm longing for

[01:55.52] Someday, I'll be bored of

[01:59.25] It's so weird

[02:10.75] That we care so much until we don't

[02:17.03] I'm getting older, I've got more on my shoulders

[02:22.53] But I'm getting better at admitting when I'm wrong

[02:28.53] I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor

[02:34.27] To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

[02:40.74] 'Cause to be honest, I just wish that what I promise

[02:45.77] Would depend on what I'm given (not on his permission)

[02:52.27] (Wasn't my decision) to be abused, mmm

[03:01.56] Things I once enjoyed

[03:07.31] Just keep me employed now

[03:13.56] Things I'm longing for, mmh

[03:19.56] Someday, I'll be bored of

[03:23.04] It's so weird

[03:34.53] That we care so much until we don't

[03:41.06] But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughing

[03:46.31] For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine

[03:53.03] I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna

[03:58.06] Was too afraid to tell ya, but now, I think it's time