Understand

[00:03.38] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:05.13] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:07.79] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:12.30] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:14.70] Just broke my heart in two

[00:17.36] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:19.48] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:21.60] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:23.92] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:26.30] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:28.68] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:30.81] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:33.20] And when I started making sensе

[00:34.79] I found that I had reached the end

[00:36.12] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:36.83] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:37.60] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:39.92] You're not shit

[00:40.44] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:44.32] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:48.99] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[00:51.53] And different flavored pills I hid

[00:53.65] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[00:56.04] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[00:58.32] I said that

[00:59.27] Girl, I hope you understand

[01:01.03] I wanted to hold your hand

[01:03.68] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:08.20] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:10.86] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:13.25] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:15.63] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:17.65] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:18.86] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:20.85] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:22.33] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:23.53] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:25.01] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:27.01] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:29.01] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:31.41] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:33.80] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:36.19] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:39.37] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:41.50] I said before I'm not okay

[01:44.15] But you don't listen anyway

[01:46.02] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:48.14] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:50.81] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[01:53.06] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:55.48] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[01:59.61] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:59.63] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:02.90] (So I'll say)

[02:03.28] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:07.27] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:10.51] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:12.36] (So I'll say)

[02:13.84] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:16.38] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:18.76] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:23.55] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:25.54] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:27.67] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:30.33] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:32.73] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:35.25] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:37.64] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:42.17] And you know I'll play along you

[02:44.81] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:46.83] And now you're dead to me effectively

[02:48.83] Removed yourself outside my dream