Understand

[00:14.38] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:16.13] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:18.79] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:23.30] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:25.70] Just broke my heart in two

[00:28.36] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:30.48] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:32.60] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:34.92] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:37.30] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:39.68] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:41.81] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:44.20] And when I started making sensе

[00:45.79] I found that I had reached the end

[00:47.12] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:47.83] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:48.60] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:50.92] You're not shit

[00:51.44] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:55.32] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:59.99] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[01:02.53] And different flavored pills I hid

[01:04.65] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[01:07.04] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[01:09.32] I said that

[01:10.27] Girl, I hope you understand

[01:12.03] I wanted to hold your hand

[01:14.68] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:19.20] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:21.86] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:24.25] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:26.63] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:28.65] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:29.86] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:31.85] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:33.33] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:34.53] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:36.01] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:38.01] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:40.01] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:42.41] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:44.80] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:47.19] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:50.37] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:52.50] I said before I'm not okay

[01:55.15] But you don't listen anyway

[01:57.02] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:59.14] Straight out lied right to my face

[02:01.81] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[02:04.06] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:06.48] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:10.61] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:10.63] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:13.90] (So I'll say)

[02:14.28] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:18.27] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:21.51] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:23.36] (So I'll say)

[02:24.84] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:27.38] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:29.76] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:34.55] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:36.54] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:38.67] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:41.33] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:43.73] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:46.25] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:48.64] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:53.17] And you know I'll play along you

[02:55.81] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:57.83] And now you're dead to me effectively

[02:59.83] Removed yourself outside my dream