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[00:29.76] Cause I had the best of the worst sides
[00:36.29] And I had these lungs
[00:43.26] And I had too many flash fires
[00:49.77] That I just let them burn
[00:58.50] 'Til my chest is on fire
[01:01.75] And my head just won't die
[01:05.27] I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna
[01:08.51] I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
[01:11.77] 'Cause I just feel so tired
[01:14.99] Like it's move or slowly die
[01:18.27] You say, you ain't you when you're like this,
[01:21.76] This ain't you and you know it
[01:25.00] But ain't that just the point?
[01:28.52] You don't know
[01:31.26] How to let go
[01:34.25] Who said this must be all or nothing?
[01:39.25] But I'm still caught below
[01:44.75] And I'll never let you know
[01:47.74] No, I can't tell you nothing
[01:52.26] 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
[01:56.47] But still I could always be
[01:59.01] Whatever you wanted
[02:00.99] But not what you needed
[02:02.73] Especially when you been needing me
[02:05.49] 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
[02:09.51] And I'll say what I don't mean
[02:12.76] Just 'cause I wanted
[02:14.25] Or maybe I need it
[02:15.99] Swear lying's the only rush I need
[02:24.47] 'Cause all I needed was some words to say
[02:28.01] That all these feelings don't mean shit to me
[02:30.99] 'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway
[02:38.00] And I got way too many routes to take
[02:40.25] To make this all just go away
[02:41.75] And find another heart to break
[02:43.47] So heartless with the words I say
[02:44.99] Just saying what I'm supposed to say
[02:46.75] 'Cause I had nothing for you
[02:48.24] I can't love when I can't even love myself
[02:51.75] Things I would rather be
[02:53.07] Thoughts at the back of my head,
[02:55.32] But I'm addicted to hurting
[02:58.80] And I got these lungs
[03:04.82] And I spent too many late nights
[03:11.55] Just thinking a hole in the earth
[03:15.55] 'Til the sky is on fire
[03:18.31] And my head still won't die
[03:21.80] I guess I'm lying 'cause I want to
[03:25.05] I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
[03:28.31] 'Cause I just feel so tired
[03:31.55] Like I need something to come alive
[03:34.53] She said, "You ain't you when you're like this,
[03:38.55] This ain't you what you done?"
[03:41.79] And I said, "That's the point."
[03:45.52] You don't know how to let go
[03:50.80] Who said this must be all or nothing?
[03:55.80] But I'm still caught below
[04:01.54] And I'll never let you know
[04:04.53] No I can't tell you nothing
[04:09.04] 'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
[04:12.80] But still I could always be
[04:15.56] Whatever you wanted
[04:17.54] But not what you needed
[04:18.97] Especially when you been needing me
[04:22.25] 'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside
[04:26.21] And I'll say what I don't mean
[04:29.08] Just 'cause I wanted
[04:30.83] Or maybe I need it
[04:32.49] Swear lying's the only rush I need
