Understand

[00:15.08] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:16.59] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:19.11] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:23.83] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:26.35] Just broke my heart in two

[00:28.62] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:31.20] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:33.39] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:35.65] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:37.45] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:39.97] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:42.23] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:44.87] And when I started making sensе

[00:46.38] I found that I had reached the end

[00:47.39] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:48.65] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:49.65] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:51.63] You're not shit

[00:52.39] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:57.45] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[01:00.23] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[01:02.51] And different flavored pills I hid

[01:04.78] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[01:07.55] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[01:09.81] I said that

[01:10.86] Girl, I hope you understand

[01:12.56] I wanted to hold your hand

[01:14.87] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:19.17] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:22.19] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:24.45] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:26.97] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:29.23] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:30.49] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:31.75] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:33.76] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:35.27] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:36.28] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:37.54] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:38.80] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:41.31] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:44.86] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:47.93] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:51.20] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:53.22] I said before I'm not okay

[01:55.23] But you don't listen anyway

[01:57.50] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:59.77] Straight out lied right to my face

[02:02.05] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[02:04.56] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:06.58] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:08.93] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:11.23] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:13.74] (So I'll say)

[02:16.26] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:18.53] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:21.47] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:25.00] (So I'll say)

[02:26.25] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:27.51] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:29.02] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:33.80] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:37.09] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:39.10] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:41.61] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:44.64] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:45.65] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:48.92] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:52.95] And you know I'll play along you

[02:55.47] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:57.99] And now you're dead to me effectively

[03:00.28] Removed yourself outside my dream