Understand

[00:08.81] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:17.06] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:19.75] Wanted to be your man back then

[00:22.68] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:26.65] Just broke my heart in two

[00:28.55] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:31.50] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:33.34] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:35.76] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:37.87] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:40.27] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:42.39] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:44.78] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:47.48] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:49.87] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not -

[00:54.93] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:55.73] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[01:04.49] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[01:05.03] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[01:08.48] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[01:10.34] Girl, I hope you understand I

[01:13.27] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:15.40] Wanted to be your man back then

[01:18.31] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:22.57] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:24.96] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:27.36] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:29.48] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:31.62] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:33.54] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:36.20] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:38.32] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:41.24] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:43.90] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:46.03] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:47.62] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:50.27] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:53.22] I said before I'm not okay

[01:55.32] But you don't listen anyway

[01:57.70] You know I tried, you turned away

[02:00.38] Straight out lied right to my face

[02:02.50] You - my life, ruined my day

[02:04.37] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:07.04] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:09.68] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:11.84] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:14.76] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:16.62] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:18.74] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:22.20] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:24.57] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:26.44] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:28.36] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:30.49] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:32.86] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:37.13] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a - about me

[02:44.35] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:45.14] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:49.15] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:50.50] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:52.63] And you had known and played along, you

[02:56.08] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:58.47] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:59.79] Removed yourself outside my dreams