NF - The Search

[00:00.32] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:02.98] I don't know, it's alright

[00:04.84] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:06.71] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:09.37] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:11.23] I just think I need a little me time

[00:13.09] I just think I need a little free time

[00:15.14] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:16.74] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:18.77] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:20.78] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:22.64] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:24.76] Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:26.62] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:28.74] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:30.60] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:32.74] I've been searchin'

[00:34.07] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:35.13] I've been learning

[00:36.20] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:38.56] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:40.15] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:42.28] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:44.14] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:45.99] And things might hurt me

[00:47.62] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:49.16] It's worth it, though

[00:50.49] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:52.35] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:54.47] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:56.40] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:58.26] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:00.38] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:02.66] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:05.17] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:06.76] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:08.62] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:10.48] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:12.87] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:14.46] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:16.59] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:20.44] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:22.17] Where'd the beat go?

[01:23.23] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:24.55] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:26.15] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:28.54] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:30.40] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:31.99] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[01:34.39] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:36.51] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:38.63] I can be critical, never typical

[01:39.70] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:42.09] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:44.21] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:46.07] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:47.93] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:50.06] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:52.18] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:55.63] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:56.45] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:58.17] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:00.30] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:02.42] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:04.28] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:06.41] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:08.26] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:10.38] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:12.50] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:14.51] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:16.37] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:18.49] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:20.35] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:22.48] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:24.34] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:26.73] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:28.59] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:30.45] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:32.57] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:34.43] Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative

[02:36.56] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:38.68] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:40.54] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:44.00] It's that time again

[02:44.79] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:46.38] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:48.25] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:50.37] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:52.49] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:54.62] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:56.48] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh