Therapy Session Lyric Video

[00:17.34] Yeah, I gotta say like a month

[00:19.59] ago

[00:20.84] I was talking to fans

[00:22.09] And one of them pulled me

[00:23.11] aside and said

[00:24.10] "We never met but I swear

[00:25.09] that you know who I am

[00:26.34] I been through a lot

[00:27.61] I don't know how to express

[00:28.87] it to people

[00:29.59] Don't think that I can but I got

[00:31.09] that mansion CD on rotation

[00:32.84] That's real for me Nate,

[00:33.83] you do not understand"

[00:35.09] It's crazy for me

[00:36.09] Kids hit me up, say they slitting

[00:37.85] they wrists on the daily

[00:38.85] This music is more than you

[00:40.09] think

[00:40.59] Don't book me for just

[00:41.61] entertainment, it's entertaining

[00:43.08] Hearing these parents, they

[00:44.34] telling their kids

[00:45.34] My music is violent, you gotta

[00:46.59] be kidding me

[00:47.59] I guess that your definition of

[00:49.49] violence and mine

[00:50.24] Is something that we look at

[00:51.50] differently

[00:52.52] How do you picture me, huh?

[00:53.54] Want me to smile, you want

[00:55.51] me to laugh?

[00:56.53] You want me to walk in the

[00:57.52] stage with a smile on my face

[00:59.02] When I'm mad and put on a

[01:00.51] mask, for real though

[01:02.01] I mean, what you expect

[01:03.26] from me?

[01:03.79] I'm tryna do this respectfully

[01:05.03] They say that life is a race

[01:06.52] I know my problems'll probably

[01:08.27] catch up eventually

[01:09.77] I do my best to be calm

[01:11.01] How you gon' write me and

[01:12.51] tell me you slaughter my family?

[01:14.00] That's just a glimpse to the

[01:15.00] stuff that get sent to me

[01:16.00] These are the parts of my life

[01:17.26] they don't ever see, woo

[01:19.26] I am aware it's aggressive

[01:21.01] I am not here for acceptance

[01:22.80] I don't know what you expect

[01:23.79] here

[01:24.28] But what you expect when you

[01:25.51] walk in a therapy session, huh?

[01:28.75] Therapy, therapy session

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[01:45.50] This girl at the show looked

[01:46.50] me in the face

[01:47.78] And told me her life's full of

[01:48.77] drama

[01:50.01] Said her dad is abusive

[01:51.51] Apparently he likes to beat on

[01:52.76] her mama

[01:54.51] I got so angry inside

[01:55.75] I wanted to tell her to give me

[01:57.26] his number

[01:58.51] But what you gon' do with

[01:59.54] it right?

[02:00.02] You gon' hit him up then he'll

[02:01.28] start hitting her harder

[02:02.44] That's real

[02:03.68] These kids, they come to my

[02:04.42] shows

[02:05.17] With tears in they eyes

[02:06.19] Imagine someone looking

[02:07.18] at you

[02:07.94] And saying your music's the

[02:09.05] reason that they are alive

[02:10.55] Sometimes, I don't know how

[02:11.79] to handle it

[02:12.55] This type of life isn't glamorous

[02:13.80] This ain't an act for the cameras

[02:15.55] You see me walk on these

[02:16.55] stages but have no idea what

[02:18.09] I'm dealing with after it

[02:19.31] I put it all in the open

[02:21.03] This is the way that I cope with

[02:22.33] all my emotion

[02:23.80] I'm taking pictures with thousands

[02:25.04] of people

[02:25.80] But honestly, I feel like nobody

[02:27.04] knows me

[02:28.30] I'm trying to deal with depression

[02:29.56] I'm trying to deal with the

[02:30.80] pressure

[02:31.55] How you gon' tell me my music

[02:32.55] does not have a message

[02:34.05] When I'm looking out at this

[02:35.31] crowd full of people I know

[02:36.55] I affected?

[02:37.55] Ah, I got some things in my life,

[02:40.55] I know I should let 'em go

[02:42.81] Let me jot it down, let me take

[02:44.80] a mental note

[02:46.31] I put it all in this microphone,

[02:49.05] think about that for a minute

[02:50.58] What is the point of this song,

[02:52.05] I'm just venting but what you

[02:53.05] expect from a therapy session,

[02:54.55] huh?

[02:56.05] Therapy, therapy session

[03:04.79] Therapy, therapy session

[03:13.05] What you think about me

[03:15.06] That doesn't worry me

[03:16.32] I know I handle some things

[03:17.30] immaturely

[03:18.17] I know that I need to grow in

[03:19.56] maturity

[03:20.58] I ain't gon' walk on these stages

[03:21.81] in front of these people

[03:23.05] And act like I live my life

[03:24.07] perfectly

[03:25.06] That doesn't work for me

[03:26.31] Christian is not the definition

[03:28.06] of a perfect me, woo

[03:30.56] I ain't the type to be quiet

[03:32.05] I ain't gon' sit here in silence

[03:33.55] If I wouldn't say what I say to

[03:34.54] your face

[03:35.57] Then I promise you I wouldn't

[03:36.80] say it in private

[03:38.05] I am not lying

[03:39.05] People go off on my page

[03:40.30] and I'm trying to quit the

[03:41.55] replying

[03:42.30] But this is ridiculous

[03:43.79] I'm passionate man, I really

[03:45.30] mean what I'm writing

[03:46.56] You want me to keep it 100?

[03:48.30] Okay, I'll keep it 100

[03:50.07] I see a whole lot of talking

[03:51.29] on socials

[03:52.05] But honestly, I don't see nothing

[03:53.30] in public

[03:54.30] I kinda love it, yeah

[03:56.56] "Why don't you write us some

[03:57.55] happy raps?

[03:58.55] That would be awesome

[03:59.81] All your music is moody and

[04:01.30] dark, Nate"

[04:02.80] Don't get me started

[04:05.80] You wanna know what it's

[04:06.81] like if you met me in person?

[04:08.29] Listen to my verses

[04:09.55] This music is not just for

[04:10.55] people

[04:11.30] Who sit in the pews and pray

[04:12.31] at the churches

[04:14.34] I won't reject it

[04:15.30] I don't expect everyone to

[04:16.32] respect it

[04:17.30] I don't expect you to get my

[04:18.31] perspective

[04:19.30] What you expect from a

[04:20.55] therapy session?

[04:26.80] I mean, I think sometimes

[04:30.55] people they confuse what

[04:32.82] I'm doing

[04:34.78] I write about life, I write about

[04:36.05] things that I'm actually

[04:38.05] dealing with

[04:39.31] Something that I'm actually

[04:40.80] experiencing, this is real

[04:42.55] for me

[04:43.57] Like this is something that

[04:44.56] personally helps me as well

[04:46.55] I'm not confused about who

[04:48.05] gave me the gift

[04:49.06] God gave me the gift and he

[04:50.04] gave me the ability to, to do

[04:51.56] this

[04:52.31] And he also gave me this as

[04:53.31] an outlet

[04:54.55] And that's what music is for me

[04:56.05] When I feel something,

[04:57.32] whether it's anger

[04:58.55] Um, it's a passion about

[05:00.04] something, or frustration

[05:01.55] Like this is where I go, this is,

[05:03.29] this is, that's the whole

[05:05.06] nfrealmusic thing man

[05:06.80] This is real for me, I need this,

[05:09.05] this is a therapy for me