BoyWithUke - Understand

[00:14.88] Girl, I hope you understand

[00:17.01] I wanted to hold your hand

[00:18.62] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:23.47] And you knew I fell for you but you

[00:26.74] Just broke my heart in two

[00:28.57] I was sad, mad and broken on my bed

[00:31.10] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:33.36] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:35.79] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:37.73] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:40.17] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:42.68] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidencе

[00:44.61] And when I started making sensе

[00:45.99] I found that I had reached the end

[00:47.37] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

[00:48.22] You wanna bet you're just pretend?

[00:49.07] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:51.21] You're not shit

[00:52.27] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:56.01] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[01:00.55] They were my neighbors, razor blades

[01:03.22] And different flavored pills I hid

[01:05.37] Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[01:08.04] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past,

[01:10.18] I said that

[01:10.97] Girl, I hope you understand

[01:13.11] I wanted to hold your hand

[01:14.99] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:20.05] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:22.71] So it's hard to be the one you aren't

[01:24.87] With instead filled with anxiety

[01:27.25] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:29.14] Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:30.48] I'm not used to all the talk, it was an introvert

[01:32.06] That had converted feelings into writing

[01:33.93] Used to cope with all my problems

[01:35.26] Using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:36.08] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:38.77] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:40.89] To the times I would try be the guy the people know

[01:43.56] I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids

[01:45.44] On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot

[01:48.13] Oh the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:50.80] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:53.46] I said before I'm not okay

[01:55.63] But you don't listen anyway

[01:57.77] You know I tried, you turned away

[02:00.20] Straight out lied right to my face

[02:02.38] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[02:05.08] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:06.98] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:09.61] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:11.72] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:15.25] (So I'll say)

[02:16.31] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:19.23] (And you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:20.84] Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it

[02:24.57] (So I'll say)

[02:25.66] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:27.77] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:29.60] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:34.14] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:36.56] Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck

[02:38.95] About me, this could be a dream, I can't see

[02:41.61] The things that you see, so please, oh

[02:43.73] Girl, I hope you understand

[02:46.38] I wanted to hold your hand

[02:47.97] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:52.77] And you know I'll play along you

[02:55.69] In my home I wrote you songs

[02:57.55] And now you're dead to me effectively

[02:59.95] Removed yourself outside my dream