Understand

[00:00.44] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:01.77] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:04.69] Wanted to be your man back then

[00:08.94] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:11.33] Just broke my heart in two

[00:13.46] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:15.85] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:17.98] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:20.10] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:22.49] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:24.62] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:27.54] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:29.67] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:32.06] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:34.18] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not -

[00:36.57] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:40.28] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.33] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[00:50.01] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[00:52.40] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[00:55.59] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:57.98] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:00.90] Wanted to be your man back then

[01:04.26] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.44] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:09.83] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:11.70] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.08] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:16.21] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:18.60] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:21.00] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:23.39] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:25.51] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:27.90] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:30.29] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:32.68] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:35.34] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:37.72] I said before I'm not okay

[01:40.11] But you don't listen anyway

[01:42.51] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:44.90] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:47.03] You - my life, ruined my day

[01:49.41] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:51.80] Nothing can fill this silence

[01:53.93] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:56.85] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[01:58.72] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:01.01] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:03.13] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:05.53] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:07.91] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:10.30] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:12.69] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:14.82] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.33] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:21.19] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a - about me

[02:24.64] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:28.63] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:31.56] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:33.42] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:37.83] And you had known and played along, you

[02:40.49] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:42.34] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:45.00] Removed yourself outside my dreams