I'm Not Okay

[00:00.25] "I'm Not Okay"

[00:00.48] Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud

[00:06.23] But I built walls so high so they never even make a sound

[00:13.24] It's a mask, it's a lie, it's the only home I've ever known

[00:20.24] 'Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone

[00:29.26] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[00:36.48] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[00:43.48] The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

[00:48.74] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

[00:50.48] You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

[00:54.23] I'm not okay

[01:04.23] I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof

[01:08.73] That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

[01:18.25] My life's invisible abuse, I'm either judged or have to hide

[01:23.99] The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive

[01:33.99] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[01:41.24] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[01:47.98] The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

[01:51.73] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

[01:55.24] You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

[02:01.48] I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell

[02:06.48] But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself

[02:15.89] To myself

[02:20.14] I am not okay, and I need you to see it

[02:27.40] I have so much to say, and no one to hear it

[02:34.42] I'm not okay, I'm not okay

[02:39.39] I'm never safe, it's not a phase

[02:41.90] If I finally break would you still stay?

[02:47.15] Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud