Hope of morning

[00:14.31] My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast

[00:16.44] Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past

[00:18.31] The last mistake, the choice I made

[00:19.90] Staring in the mirror with myself to blame

[00:21.77] Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside

[00:23.36] Nowhere to hide inside my mind

[00:25.23] I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair

[00:28.42] I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step

[00:32.66] What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?

[00:36.12] I try to capture every moment as it comes to me

[00:39.31] Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company

[00:49.14] When the hope of morning starts to fade in me

[01:00.82] I don't dare let darkness have its way with me

[01:03.47] And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight

[01:11.45] I will not be giving in tonight

[01:20.47] When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first

[01:23.67] I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse

[01:27.66] Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself

[01:31.10] Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health

[01:34.56] Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track

[01:38.28] I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac

[01:41.99] Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves

[01:45.45] Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills

[01:48.91] But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose

[01:52.36] Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close

[01:56.07] But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know

[01:59.53] Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go

[02:03.25] When the hope of morning starts to fade in me

[02:09.62] I don't dare let darkness have its way with me

[02:16.80] And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight

[02:24.50] I will not be giving in tonight

[02:32.73] Try as I might to keep it together

[02:35.65] Why is recovery taking forever

[02:39.10] Fool the whole world, just until I get better

[02:42.82] I'm terrified I'll be faking forever

[02:48.67] On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head

[02:51.59] I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did

[02:55.31] All the pain I can't explain away won't fade

[02:59.03] All the secrets silenced by the shame

[03:01.41] Don't make me say it

[03:16.56] When the hope of morning starts to fade in me

[03:23.20] I don't dare let darkness have its way with me

[03:30.64] And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight

[03:38.34] I will not be giving in tonight