Understand

[00:14.98] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[00:19.25] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:23.99] And you knew I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two

[00:28.51] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:30.90] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:33.30] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:35.43] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:37.82] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:40.21] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:42.55] So instead, I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:44.41] And whеn I started making sense, I found that I had rеached the end

[00:47.06] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:48.95] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit

[00:51.77] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:55.73] I said I'd talk to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[01:00.51] They were my neighbors; razor blades

[01:03.16] And different flavored pills I hit

[01:05.03] Therefore, I'm at, surely, my last straw

[01:07.96] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[01:10.62] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[01:14.87] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:19.92] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:22.54] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:24.93] Instead filled with anxiety, always was a part of me

[01:28.07] Guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:29.35] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:31.46] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:33.62] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:36.01] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:38.40] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:40.53] To the times I would try and be the guy the people know

[01:42.83] As always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:45.49] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:47.88] Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn grey

[01:50.80] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:53.19] I've said before I'm not okay

[01:55.32] But you don't listen anyway

[01:57.72] You know I tried, you turned away

[02:00.11] You straight-up lied right to my face

[02:02.24] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[02:04.64] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:06.73] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:09.86] (You don't know, so I'll say)

[02:11.89] Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

[02:15.34] (So I'll say)

[02:16.34] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:19.23] (You don't know, so I'll say)

[02:21.32] Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

[02:25.01] (So I'll say)

[02:25.77] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[02:29.42] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:34.47] And too bad I know I can't wake up because I lost my way

[02:37.65] And you don't give a fuck about me, this could be a dream

[02:41.37] I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:43.99] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[02:47.98] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:53.02] And you had known and played along

[02:55.71] You were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:57.58] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:59.95] Removed yourself outside my dreams