How Could You Leave Us

[00:14.78] How could you leave so unexpected?

[00:21.04] We waited, we waited for you,

[00:28.03] But you just left us

[00:32.53] We needed you, I needed you

[00:38.54] Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills

[00:41.04] But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills

[00:44.03] Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real

[00:47.04] I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah

[00:50.66] Welcome to the bottom of hell

[00:52.66] They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell

[00:55.41] You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well

[00:58.41] Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell

[01:01.17] Into my pillowcases, say you coming to get us

[01:04.16] Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated

[01:07.66] I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know

[01:10.41] Some lady in the corner watching us, while she's taking notes

[01:13.16] I don't get it, mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?

[01:16.16] I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is no

[01:19.16] But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til them pills kill you

[01:22.67] I know you're gone but I can still feel you

[01:28.66] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[01:34.91] How could you leave us here?

[01:38.94] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[01:42.91] Oh, hey

[01:49.91] I got this picture in my room and it kills me

[01:52.66] But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing

[01:55.66] Now a relationship is something we will never have

[01:58.16] Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?

[02:01.41] You should've been there when I graduated

[02:03.40] Told me you love me and congratulations

[02:05.66] Instead you left us at the window waiting

[02:07.91] Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at, huh?

[02:12.16] Yeah, I know them drugs, they got you held captive

[02:15.16] I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured

[02:17.91] Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing

[02:20.91] And what you don't realise and what you not grasping

[02:23.66] That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand it

[02:26.41] I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened

[02:29.16] I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes

[02:32.29] If you really cared for me, then where you at then?

[02:37.28] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[02:43.28] How could you leave us here?

[02:47.53] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[02:51.42] Oh, hey

[02:58.18] Our last conversation. You and I sat in the living room

[03:01.18] Talking 'bout my music and I brought you some to listen to

[03:03.92] You started crying, telling me, "This isn't you."

[03:06.93] Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune

[03:09.92] You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?

[03:12.42] They took you from us once, I guess they came back to finish you

[03:15.17] Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult

[03:18.18] Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you

[03:20.92] It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral

[03:23.92] Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful

[03:26.66] I wish you were here, mama, but every time I picture you

[03:29.43] All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you

[03:32.42] They found you on the floor, I could tell you felt hollow

[03:35.42] Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

[03:38.16] You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

[03:40.92] Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you're still watching, why..?

[03:45.94] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[03:51.67] How could you leave us here?

[03:55.95] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[03:59.92] Oh, hey

[04:14.68] Sometimes I think about like—

[04:18.17] Sometimes I think about things like, you know, when I'd have kids and like

[04:31.41] You won't be there, you know? You won't be there for any of that.

[04:44.17] I'll never get to see you again.

[04:48.43] Sometimes I wish I would have just called you, I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here.

[04:56.67] I mean you should have been there for us, you should have been here.

[05:02.92] Pills got you, right?

[05:07.18] Them pills got you, right?

[05:15.17] I wish you were here