Eminem - Headlights Feat. Nate Ruess

[00:12.39] Mom, I know I let you down

[00:18.49] And though you say the days are happy

[00:22.48] Why is the power off and I'm fucked up?

[00:25.41] And, mom, I know he's not around

[00:31.25] But don't you place the blame on me

[00:34.71] As you pour yourself another drink, yeah

[00:39.48] I guess we are who we are

[00:45.60] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[00:52.50] Maybe we took this too far

[00:58.07] I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who, what I said hurt

[01:01.80] In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst

[01:04.45] The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?

[01:07.90] "Cleanin' Out My Closet" and all them other songs

[01:10.03] But regardless, I don't hate you 'cause, Ma

[01:12.15] You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my Ma

[01:14.82] Though far be it from you to be calm

[01:16.67] Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm

[01:18.79] And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb

[01:21.18] Equivalent to chemical warfare

[01:22.78] And forever we could drag this on and on

[01:25.17] But agree to disagree, that gift for me

[01:27.83] Up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me

[01:29.68] You're kickin' me out? It's 15 degrees

[01:33.14] And it's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave"

[01:34.73] Ma, let me grab my fucking coat

[01:35.53] Anything to have each other's goats

[01:36.32] Why we always at each other's throats?

[01:38.18] Especially when Dad, he fucked us both

[01:40.05] We're in the same fuckin' boat

[01:41.64] You'd think that'd make us close (nope)

[01:43.23] Further away it drove us, but together, headlights shine

[01:45.89] And a car full of belongings, still got a ways to go

[01:48.81] Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road

[01:50.67] And I was the man of the house, the oldest

[01:52.52] So my shoulders carried the weight of the load

[01:54.92] Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old

[01:57.85] And that's when I realized you were sick

[01:59.44] And it wasn't fixable or changeable

[02:01.56] And to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though, but

[02:04.49] I guess we are who we are

[02:10.59] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[02:17.50] Maybe we took this too far

[02:24.40] 'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though

[02:27.33] 'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow

[02:30.52] But I'm sorry, momma, for "Cleanin' Out My Closet"

[02:32.64] At the time I was angry, rightfully? Maybe so

[02:35.03] Never meant that far to take it though

[02:37.16] 'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not makin' jokes

[02:40.61] That song I no longer play at shows

[02:42.21] And I cringe every time it's on the radio

[02:44.60] And I think of Nathan being placed in a home

[02:46.72] And all the medicine you fed us and

[02:48.31] How I just wanted you to taste your own

[02:49.63] But now the medication's takin' over

[02:52.82] And your mental state's deterioratin' slow

[02:54.68] And I'm way too old to cry, the shit is painful though

[02:57.07] But, Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo

[02:59.74] All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both

[03:02.92] Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours

[03:06.64] But I love you, Debbie Mathers

[03:07.96] Oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause

[03:09.83] One thing I never asked was

[03:11.42] Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was

[03:13.28] Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address

[03:16.46] But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus

[03:19.65] Owned a collection of maps

[03:20.98] And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas

[03:22.84] If someone ever moved 'em from me

[03:24.70] That you coulda bet your asses

[03:26.29] If I had to come down the chimney, dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em

[03:29.74] And although one has only met their grandma once

[03:32.40] You pulled up in our drive one night

[03:34.53] As we were leavin' to get some hamburgers

[03:36.12] Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you

[03:38.78] And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness

[03:41.69] Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and

[03:45.16] I saw your headlights as I looked back

[03:47.01] And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to

[03:49.13] Thank you for being my mom and my dad

[03:51.26] So, mom, please accept this as a

[03:53.12] Tribute, I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to

[03:55.25] Get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to

[03:57.91] Lay it 'fore I'm dead, the stewardess said to fasten

[04:00.30] My seatbelt, I guess we're crashin'

[04:02.95] So, if I'm not dreamin', I hope you get this message that

[04:06.14] I will always love you from afar, 'cause you're my mom

[04:09.06] I guess we are who we are

[04:14.90] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[04:21.80] Maybe we took this too far

[04:26.06] I want a new life (start over)

[04:29.78] One without a cause (clean slate)

[04:32.70] So I'm coming home tonight (yeah)

[04:35.88] Well, no matter what the cost

[04:39.34] And if the plane goes down

[04:42.53] Or if the crew can't wake me up

[04:45.72] Well, just know that I'm alright

[04:48.91] I was not afraid to die

[04:52.62] Oh, even if there's songs to sing

[04:56.07] Well, my children will carry me

[04:59.00] Just know that I'm alright

[05:02.18] I was not afraid to die

[05:05.37] Because I put my faith in my little girls

[05:08.56] So I'll never say goodbye cruel world

[05:12.01] Just know that I'm alright

[05:15.20] I am not afraid to die

[05:21.04] I guess we are who we are

[05:26.89] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[05:34.33] Maybe we took this too far

[05:38.39] I want a new life