Understand

[00:02.97] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:05.09] Wanted to be your man back then

[00:07.53] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:11.53] Just broke my heart in two

[00:13.92] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:16.31] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:18.70] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:21.09] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:23.49] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:25.61] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:28.00] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:30.38] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:32.51] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:34.90] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not -

[00:37.56] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:40.80] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.85] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[00:50.62] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[00:53.08] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[00:56.26] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:58.19] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:01.10] Wanted to be your man back then

[01:04.83] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.75] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:10.73] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:12.81] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.68] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:16.80] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:19.19] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:21.57] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:23.99] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:26.37] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:28.77] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:31.16] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:33.54] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:35.94] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.59] I said before I'm not okay

[01:40.72] But you don't listen anyway

[01:42.84] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:45.23] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:47.64] You - my life, ruined my day

[01:50.04] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:52.16] Nothing can fill this silence

[01:54.82] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:56.94] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[01:59.33] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:01.46] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:04.11] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:07.04] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:09.24] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:10.84] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:12.96] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:15.63] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.92] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:21.77] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a - about me

[02:25.80] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:29.53] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:31.93] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:34.05] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:38.03] And you had known and played along, you

[02:40.96] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:43.08] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:45.47] Removed yourself outside my dreams