Headlights - Eminem ft. Nate Ruess

[00:13.08] Mom, I know I let you down

[00:18.57] And though you say the days are happy

[00:21.98] Why is the power off and I'm fucked up?

[00:25.72] And, mom, I know he's not around

[00:31.74] But don't you place the blame on me

[00:35.16] As you pour yourself another drink, yeah

[00:39.61] I guess we are who we are

[00:45.65] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[00:52.67] Maybe we took this too far

[00:58.47] I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who, what I said hurt

[01:02.09] In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst

[01:04.61] The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?

[01:08.27] "Cleanin' Out My Closet" and all them other songs

[01:10.09] But regardless, I don't hate you 'cause, Ma

[01:12.44] You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my Ma

[01:14.96] Though far be it from you to be calm

[01:16.68] Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm

[01:19.01] And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb

[01:21.33] Equivalent to chemical warfare

[01:22.85] And forever we could drag this on and on

[01:24.91] But agree to disagree, that gift for me

[01:27.77] Up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me

[01:29.86] You're kickin' me out? It's 15 degrees

[01:31.40] And it's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave"

[01:33.34] Ma, let me grab my fucking coat

[01:34.88] Anything to have each other's goats

[01:36.37] Why we always at each other's throats?

[01:38.18] Especially when Dad, he fucked us both

[01:40.44] We're in the same fuckin' boat

[01:41.72] You'd think that'd make us close (nope)

[01:43.48] Further away it drove us, but together, headlights shine

[01:46.33] And a car full of belongings, still got a ways to go

[01:48.91] Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road

[01:50.70] And I was the man of the house, the oldest

[01:52.36] So my shoulders carried the weight of the load

[01:55.31] Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old

[01:57.55] And that's when I realized you were sick

[01:59.64] And it wasn't fixable or changeable

[02:01.98] And to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though, but

[02:04.83] I guess we are who we are

[02:10.88] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[02:17.79] Maybe we took this too far

[02:24.62] 'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though

[02:27.72] 'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow

[02:30.87] But I'm sorry, momma, for "Cleanin' Out My Closet"

[02:32.91] At the time I was angry, rightfully? Maybe so

[02:35.22] Never meant that far to take it though

[02:36.99] 'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not makin' jokes

[02:40.60] That song I no longer play at shows

[02:42.31] And I cringe every time it's on the radio

[02:44.88] And I think of Nathan being placed in a home

[02:46.82] And all the medicine you fed us and

[02:48.25] How I just wanted you to taste your own

[02:50.07] But now the medication's takin' over

[02:52.90] And your mental state's deterioratin' slow

[02:54.93] And I'm way too old to cry, the shit is painful though

[02:57.27] But, Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo

[03:00.11] All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both

[03:03.50] Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours

[03:06.66] But I love you, Debbie Mathers

[03:08.15] Oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause

[03:10.26] One thing I never asked was

[03:11.75] Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was

[03:13.54] Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address

[03:16.68] But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus

[03:20.05] Owned a collection of maps

[03:21.05] And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas

[03:23.14] If someone ever moved 'em from me

[03:24.89] That you coulda bet your asses

[03:26.41] If I had to come down the chimney, dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em

[03:29.81] And although one has only met their grandma once

[03:32.59] You pulled up in our drive one night

[03:34.41] As we were leavin' to get some hamburgers

[03:36.43] Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you

[03:38.99] And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness

[03:42.11] Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and

[03:45.22] I saw your headlights as I looked back

[03:47.26] And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to

[03:49.55] Thank you for being my mom and my dad

[03:51.33] So, mom, please accept this as a

[03:53.16] Tribute, I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to

[03:55.77] Get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to

[03:58.04] Lay it 'fore I'm dead, the stewardess said to fasten

[04:00.54] My seatbelt, I guess we're crashin'

[04:03.11] So, if I'm not dreamin', I hope you get this message that

[04:06.26] I will always love you from afar, 'cause you're my mom

[04:09.12] I guess we are who we are

[04:15.16] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[04:22.21] Maybe we took this too far

[04:26.41] I want a new life (start over)

[04:30.07] One without a cause (clean slate)

[04:32.40] So I'm coming home tonight (yeah)

[04:36.04] Well, no matter what the cost

[04:39.72] And if the plane goes down

[04:42.59] Or if the crew can't wake me up

[04:45.73] Well, just know that I'm alright

[04:49.38] I was not afraid to die

[04:52.77] Oh, even if there's songs to sing

[04:55.87] Well, my children will carry me

[04:59.27] Just know that I'm alright

[05:02.41] I was not afraid to die

[05:05.53] Because I put my faith in my little girls

[05:08.87] So I'll never say goodbye cruel world

[05:12.30] Just know that I'm alright

[05:15.46] I am not afraid to die

[05:21.21] I guess we are who we are

[05:27.25] Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on

[05:34.25] Maybe we took this too far

[05:38.58] I want a new life