NF - The Search

[00:03.71] Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:37.46] I don't know, it's alright

[00:40.64] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:42.77] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:44.09] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:46.24] I just think I need a little me time

[00:48.36] I just think I need a little free time

[00:49.96] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:52.87] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:54.47] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:56.33] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:57.92] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[01:00.05] Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[01:02.18] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[01:04.03] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[01:05.89] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[01:08.01] I've been searchin'

[01:09.88] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[01:10.95] I've been learning

[01:12.00] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[01:13.33] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:15.45] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[01:17.05] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:18.91] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:20.77] And things might hurt me

[01:22.64] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[01:24.22] It's worth it, though

[01:25.82] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:27.67] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:29.80] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:31.66] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:33.78] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:35.64] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:37.77] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.43] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:42.02] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:44.14] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:45.74] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:47.61] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:50.01] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:51.86] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:55.31] Forget what I'm saying, and

[02:00.63] Where'd the beat go?

[02:01.17] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[02:02.23] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[02:02.76] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[02:03.83] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[02:05.44] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[02:08.08] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[02:09.94] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[02:11.80] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[02:13.92] I can be critical, never typical

[02:15.52] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:17.12] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:19.24] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[02:21.37] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:23.22] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.61] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:27.47] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:29.33] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:31.72] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:33.86] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:35.72] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:37.58] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:39.72] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:41.86] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:43.99] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:45.84] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:48.24] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.83] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:51.96] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:53.81] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:55.94] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:57.80] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:59.93] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[03:01.25] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[03:03.67] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[03:05.78] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[03:07.64] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[03:09.50] Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative

[03:11.65] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[03:13.77] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:15.90] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[03:18.03] It's that time again

[03:20.14] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:21.74] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:23.86] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:25.72] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:27.58] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:29.72] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:31.58] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh