The Search - NF

[00:01.79] Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:03.92] I don't know, it's alright

[00:05.78] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:09.60] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:11.20] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:12.26] I just think I need a little me time

[00:14.11] I just think I need a little free time

[00:15.97] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:18.13] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:19.99] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:22.14] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:23.76] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:25.89] Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:28.01] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:29.62] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:31.74] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:33.87] I've been searchin'

[00:35.18] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:36.25] I've been learning

[00:37.32] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:39.17] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:41.03] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:43.15] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:45.03] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:47.15] And things might hurt me

[00:48.21] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:50.35] It's worth it, though

[00:52.21] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:53.54] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:55.41] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:57.28] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:59.14] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:01.28] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:03.95] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:06.08] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:07.68] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:09.54] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:11.39] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:13.51] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:16.45] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:18.06] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:22.28] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:24.16] Where'd the beat go?

[01:25.23] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:27.61] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:29.23] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:30.03] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:30.83] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:31.62] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[01:32.95] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:33.48] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:35.60] I can be critical, never typical

[01:37.48] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:40.68] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:42.53] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:44.95] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:47.07] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:48.15] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:52.41] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:57.44] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:58.23] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:59.57] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:01.45] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:03.57] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:09.24] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:11.10] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:11.64] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:12.42] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:14.30] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:15.62] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:17.47] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:19.33] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:21.46] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:23.32] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:25.73] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:27.85] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:28.92] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:30.76] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:33.42] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:35.29] Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative

[02:37.42] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:39.28] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:41.65] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:44.59] It's that time again

[02:45.38] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:47.53] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:49.66] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:51.51] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:53.37] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:55.26] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:57.67] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh