The Search

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[00:01.65] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:02.90] I don't know, it's alright

[00:04.65] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:06.90] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:08.91] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:10.90] I just think I need a little me time

[00:12.90] I just think I need a little free time

[00:14.65] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:17.16] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:18.65] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:20.65] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:22.65] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:24.65] Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:26.90] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:28.40] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:30.65] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:32.90] I've been searchin'

[00:33.91] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:34.90] I've been learning

[00:35.90] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:37.43] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:38.91] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:41.91] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:43.90] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:45.65] And things might hurt me

[00:46.90] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:49.14] It's worth it, though

[00:50.15] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:52.16] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:54.15] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:56.14] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:58.17] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:00.14] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:02.14] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:04.90] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:06.66] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:08.66] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:10.40] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:12.39] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:14.15] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:16.40] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:19.39] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:21.65] Where'd the beat go?

[01:22.40] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:24.40] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:26.41] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:28.15] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:30.40] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:32.41] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[01:34.40] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:36.14] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:38.41] I can be critical, never typical

[01:39.90] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:41.90] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:43.90] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:45.91] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:47.90] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:49.90] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:51.91] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:55.65] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:58.66] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:59.41] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:00.65] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:02.40] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:04.14] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:06.15] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:08.40] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:10.14] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:12.90] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:14.16] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:16.14] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:18.14] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:20.15] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:22.15] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:23.90] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:26.40] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:28.14] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:30.15] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:32.14] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:34.15] Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative

[02:36.15] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:38.15] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:39.89] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:42.90] It's that time again

[02:44.14] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:46.15] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:48.40] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:50.14] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:52.40] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:54.40] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:56.66] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh"

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