Understand (Live)

[00:00.45] [Live Performance]

[00:09.84] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:12.24] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:14.73] Wanted to be your man back then (Whistle)

[00:18.65] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:21.52] Just broke my heart in two

[00:23.28] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:25.79] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:28.04] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:30.02] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:32.66] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:34.93] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:37.18] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:39.43] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:41.68] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:44.17] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit

[00:46.93] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:50.70] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:55.43] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[01:00.08] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[01:02.58] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[01:05.58] Girl, I hope you understand I

[01:08.07] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:10.58] Wanted to be your man back then (Whistle)

[01:14.69] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:17.33] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:19.98] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:21.74] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:24.24] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:26.10] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:28.60] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:30.84] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:33.09] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:35.47] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:37.84] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:40.24] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:42.50] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:45.62] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:47.89] I said before I'm not okay

[01:50.12] But you don't listen anyway

[01:52.38] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:54.87] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:57.12] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[01:59.62] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:01.74] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:04.00] No one can love like I did

[02:06.24] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:08.76] Not fair, you still deny it

[02:13.41] Yeah, you don't know so i'll sayyy..

[02:19.05] So i'll say, girl, I hope you understand I

[02:22.79] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:25.04] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:29.17] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:31.42] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a fuck about me

[02:34.66] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:38.42] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:41.55] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:43.81] Wanted to be your man back then (Whistle)

[02:47.81] And you had known and played along, you

[02:50.56] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:52.56] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:55.06] Removed yourself outside my dreams