NF - The Search (lyrics)

[00:00.97] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:02.83] I don't know, it's alright

[00:04.96] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:06.55] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:08.95] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:10.80] I just think I need a little me time

[00:12.66] I just think I need a little free time

[00:14.81] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:16.91] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:18.78] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:20.63] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:22.49] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:24.88] Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:26.48] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:28.33] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:30.73] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:32.59] I've been searchin'

[00:33.92] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:34.98] I've been learning

[00:35.51] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:37.63] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:40.02] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:41.62] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:44.27] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:45.60] And things might hurt me

[00:46.93] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:49.06] It's worth it, though

[00:50.12] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:52.24] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:53.83] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:55.44] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:55.96] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[00:59.95] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:02.86] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:04.72] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:06.32] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:08.45] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:10.31] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:12.43] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:14.55] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:16.95] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:19.34] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:21.19] Where'd the beat go?

[01:22.52] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:23.85] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:26.50] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:28.10] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:29.96] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:32.09] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[01:33.94] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:36.07] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:38.46] I can be critical, never typical

[01:40.05] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:41.64] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:43.77] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:45.90] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:47.75] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:49.88] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:51.74] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:54.13] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:56.26] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:58.12] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[01:59.98] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:02.11] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:03.96] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:06.08] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:08.21] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:10.33] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:12.20] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:14.85] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:16.45] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:18.31] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:19.90] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:22.29] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:24.15] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:26.28] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:28.13] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:29.99] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:32.11] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:34.24] Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative

[02:36.11] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:37.96] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:40.09] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:41.94] It's that time again

[02:44.07] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:46.99] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:48.58] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:49.92] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:52.04] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:53.89] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:56.02] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh