BoyWithUke - Understand

[00:04.17] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[00:09.22] And you knew I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two

[00:13.46] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:16.11] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:17.98] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:20.36] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:22.77] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:24.91] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:27.55] So instead, I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:29.69] And whеn I started making sense, I found that I had rеached the end

[00:31.81] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:34.20] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit

[00:36.87] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:40.84] I said I'd talk to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.63] They were my neighbors; razor blades

[00:48.03] And different flavored pills I hit

[00:50.15] Therefore, I'm at, surely, my last straw

[00:52.81] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[00:55.72] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[00:59.97] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[01:04.76] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.67] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:09.80] Instead filled with anxiety, always was a part of me

[01:13.26] Guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.32] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:16.17] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:18.56] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:20.96] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:23.35] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:26.01] To the times I would try and be the guy the people know

[01:28.15] As always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:30.53] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:32.92] Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn grey

[01:35.85] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.25] I've said before I'm not okay

[01:40.36] But you don't listen anyway

[01:43.02] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:45.15] You straight-up lied right to my face

[01:47.27] You fucked my life, ruined my day

[01:49.66] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:52.05] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[01:56.31] (You don't know, so I'll say)

[01:57.10] Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

[02:00.55] (So I'll say)

[02:01.09] Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did

[02:04.54] (You don't know, so I'll say)

[02:06.13] Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it

[02:09.07] (So I'll say)

[02:10.40] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[02:14.65] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.70] And too bad I know I can't wake up because I lost my way

[02:22.88] And you don't give a fuck about me, this could be a dream

[02:26.07] I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:28.99] Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand

[02:33.24] But I can't, wanted to be your man back then

[02:38.03] And you had known and played along

[02:40.33] You were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:42.71] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:45.11] Removed yourself outside my dreams