NF - The Search [fnlJw9H0xAM]

[00:11.57] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:13.32] I don't know, it's alright

[00:15.59] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:17.81] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:19.57] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:21.58] I just think I need a little me time

[00:23.56] I just think I need a little free time

[00:25.56] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:27.60] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:29.55] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:31.57] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:33.56] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:35.56] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:37.57] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:39.31] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:41.31] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:43.32] I've been searchin'

[00:44.84] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:45.57] I've been learning

[00:46.57] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:48.33] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:50.31] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:52.31] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:54.33] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:56.07] And things might hurt me

[00:58.07] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:59.56] It's worth it, though

[01:00.81] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:02.81] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:04.56] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:06.83] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:08.80] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:10.57] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:13.32] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:15.57] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:17.82] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:19.08] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:20.81] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:22.81] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:25.07] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:27.34] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:30.33] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:32.57] Where'd the beat go?

[01:34.06] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:35.06] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:37.07] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:39.57] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:40.81] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:42.81] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[01:44.81] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:46.82] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:48.84] I can be critical, never typical

[01:50.30] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:52.34] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:54.31] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:57.55] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:00.06] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:00.54] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:02.56] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:06.07] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:07.07] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:08.79] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:10.59] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:12.84] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:15.33] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:17.04] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:18.57] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:20.32] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:22.32] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:24.32] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:26.33] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:28.56] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:30.58] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:32.82] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:35.56] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:36.81] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:38.33] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:40.32] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:42.81] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:45.07] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[02:46.84] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:48.81] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:50.81] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:53.56] It's that time again

[02:55.08] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:57.09] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:58.80] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:00.80] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:03.31] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:05.82] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:07.81] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh