NF - The Search

[00:37.07] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:38.17] I don't know, it's alright

[00:40.03] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:42.16] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:44.33] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:46.46] I just think I need a little me time

[00:48.37] I just think I need a little free time

[00:50.49] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:52.35] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:54.00] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:56.12] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:58.25] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[01:00.11] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[01:01.97] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[01:04.09] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[01:05.95] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[01:08.34] I've been searchin'

[01:09.41] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[01:10.46] I've been learning

[01:11.53] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[01:13.70] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:15.56] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[01:17.69] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:19.54] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:21.40] And things might hurt me

[01:23.04] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[01:25.06] It's worth it, though

[01:25.91] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:28.31] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:30.06] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:32.49] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:34.30] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:35.67] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:37.81] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.47] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:42.06] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:44.18] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:45.82] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:48.50] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:50.09] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:52.21] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:54.91] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:56.77] Where'd the beat go?

[01:58.36] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:59.96] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[02:02.08] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[02:03.98] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[02:06.10] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[02:07.96] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[02:10.09] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[02:11.95] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[02:13.86] I can be critical, never typical

[02:15.45] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:17.58] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:19.44] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[02:21.37] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:23.28] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.41] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:27.53] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:30.99] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:31.84] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:33.70] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:35.57] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:37.68] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:39.81] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:41.68] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:43.54] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:45.66] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:47.51] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.65] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:51.76] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:53.64] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:55.76] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:57.62] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:59.75] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[03:01.87] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[03:03.48] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[03:05.88] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[03:07.74] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[03:09.59] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[03:11.72] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[03:13.58] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:15.44] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[03:18.11] It's that time again

[03:19.71] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:21.56] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:23.69] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:25.55] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:27.67] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:29.53] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:31.99] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh