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[00:14.90] Yeah, look
[00:16.90] I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though
[00:19.91] Yeah, I been on it for a while, don't know how to put it down
[00:22.66] Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though
[00:24.66] I just wanna take it a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit
[00:26.41] Keep sayin' I'm a leave but I stay though
[00:28.67] I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
[00:30.67] I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
[00:32.67] But lately I been thinkin' I might have to
[00:34.42] Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
[00:36.18] World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
[00:38.18] You don't know what love is
[00:39.19] Till you holdin' onto something that you can't lose
[00:40.93] That's why I'm tryna get it together
[00:42.44] Sleeves up, puttin' working in, tryna be better
[00:44.44] I like to rap but I ain't gonna do it forever
[00:46.44] Forget the charts, I'm refocusing on holding my head up
[00:48.69] Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best
[00:50.69] And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets
[00:52.71] 'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head
[00:54.71] Most of my life I always felt like I was holding my breath
[00:56.70] Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it
[00:58.72] Lookin' for something in my life to be inspired again
[01:00.73] I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is
[01:02.99] But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit, running from (change)
[01:07.99] I'm looking for (Change)
[01:12.51] I'm searching for (Change)
[01:16.51] I'm looking for (Change)
[01:20.52] I just want, I just want (Change)
[01:22.77] Yeah, I don't like new things
[01:24.52] Got a lot of mood swings
[01:26.27] Oh you wanna tell me something negative?
[01:28.78] I don't wanna hear what you think
[01:30.53] Yeah, tossin' in my sleep
[01:32.28] Every night feel like two weeks
[01:34.54] Thinkin' 'bout how I coulda done this or done that better
[01:36.56] Can't help it that's just me (Lies)
[01:38.56] That's just me avoidin' the change
[01:39.81] Yeah, it's prolly why the issues ain't goin' away
[01:41.81] Yeah, it's prolly why I always sit around and complain
[01:44.06] Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place
[01:46.07] Outta my face, if you tellin' I need to be different
[01:48.07] That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity driven
[01:50.07] Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed
[01:52.08] Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen
[01:53.33] I could snap any minute, I need (Change)
[01:55.40] Yeah it's kinda easy to say right?
[01:56.65] But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life
[01:58.66] And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy
[02:00.66] But I don't ever think it, so I think I'm a fake, lyin'
[02:02.66] (Change) It's something that I know I should do
[02:04.66] I'm a little uncomfortable to tell you the truth
[02:06.68] But to be honest with you lately I got nothin' to lose
[02:08.69] See, I've always been full of pain but now I'm makin' some room
[02:10.69] Lookin' for (change)
[02:13.69] I'm looking for (Change)
[02:17.95] I'm searching for (Change)
[02:22.21] I'm looking for (Change)
[02:25.97] I just want, I just want
[02:27.72] I need a moment of silence
[02:29.72] I don't like change but I'll try it
[02:31.73] I don't want to hear what I should or I shouldn't do
[02:33.99] Why are they always defiant?
[02:35.73] See, all my emotions are liars
[02:37.99] All my emotions are violent
[02:39.74] They don't want freedom to find me
[02:41.49] Mention that name and everybody riots
[02:44.00] That's why I'm checkin' my vitals
[02:45.74] They keep on workin' but I know
[02:47.50] Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so
[02:49.00] I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope
[02:51.51] Positive thoughts are my rivals
[02:53.01] I'm tryna be on their side though
[02:54.77] Should I feel comfortable? I don't
[02:56.02] Last year I felt suicidal
[02:57.51] This year I might do something different like talking to God more
[03:00.03] I'm looking for (Change)
[03:02.03] I'm looking for
[03:03.53] I'm searching for (Change)
[03:05.54] I'm looking for
[03:07.28] I just want, I just want (Change)
[03:09.55] I'm looking for
[03:11.80] I'm searching for (Change)
[03:13.55] I'm looking for
[03:15.54] I just want, I just want (Change)
[03:17.56] I'm looking for
[03:19.56] I'm searching for (Change)
[03:22.06] I'm looking for
[03:23.81] I just want, I just want (Change)
[03:26.07] I'm looking for
[03:27.82] I'm searching for (Change)
[03:30.33] I'm looking for
[03:31.82] I just want, I just want (Change)
