chaotic

[00:06.64] I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere

[00:11.89] But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared

[00:16.15] And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common

[00:20.66] But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care

[00:25.16] You said it looks like I've been going through hell

[00:30.92] How did you know? How could you tell?

[00:35.17] Ask me to explain myself

[00:41.19] Well

[00:42.44] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

[00:47.45] Nobody said changing would be this exhausting

[00:51.95] A foot on the brake 'cause it's been making me carsick

[00:56.45] How could you blame me?

[00:58.53] Growing up is chaotic

[01:01.28] Don't wanna say it but I really think that I miss him

[01:06.03] It might seem stupid but I still look through all of our texts

[01:10.53] Who knew that wanting someone could ever make me this desperate

[01:14.80] Don't think that I'll do that again, no

[01:18.80] You said it looks like I've been going through hell

[01:24.74] How did you know? How could you tell?

[01:28.99] You ask me to explain myself

[01:34.75] Well

[01:36.01] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

[01:41.26] Nobody said changing would be this exhausting

[01:46.02] A foot on the brake 'cause it's been making me carsick

[01:50.27] How could you blame me?

[01:52.28] Growing up is chaotic

[01:55.53] And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head

[02:01.04] But I can't help it

[02:02.79] No, I can't help it

[02:05.30] Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again

[02:09.80] Goddam, I felt it

[02:12.05] I really felt it

[02:14.31] Maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head

[02:18.57] But I can't help it

[02:20.82] No, I can't help it

[02:23.07] Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget

[02:27.58] But damn, I felt it

[02:30.83] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest

[02:35.34] Nobody said changing could be this exhausting

[02:39.84] Foot on the brake 'cause it's making me carsick

[02:44.35] How could you blame me?