mental_health._(all_time_low_remix)(256k)

[00:05.10] I think about killing myself on the daily

[00:07.24] Everyone loves, but I feel like they hate me

[00:08.57] I can't explain the way that I feel

[00:09.89] So everyone thinks that I hate them, I hate me

[00:11.75] Blame myself for all of this hell

[00:13.34] Mama would tell me I need to get help

[00:14.71] But she isn't here 'cause she followed through

[00:16.31] I guess that explains my mental health, health

[00:18.69] I've been through hell

[00:20.03] I used to fantasize about being like everyone else

[00:22.70] But Satan took my mom away, my other mom just bailed

[00:25.88] I haven't seen my sister since my dad was locked in the jail

[00:29.07] Inside is all mine

[00:30.40] I sit alone at night and cry in my studio

[00:33.06] Begging God, "Please, just tell me why"

[00:35.18] The only one that really cares is my wife

[00:37.57] Don't get me wrong, she's all I need

[00:39.44] But even she has a family

[00:41.30] Who am I supposed to talk to

[00:43.43] When I got questions about being a father nobody responds to?

[00:47.15] I'm tired of learnin' on my own

[00:49.54] I just want my kids to grow up in a happy home

[00:51.93] They're happier when daddy's home

[00:53.53] But they would rather see me work a nine to five

[00:55.92] You can't afford to sacrifice, just give up all your dreams and die

[00:58.84] But tell your kids that they can fly

[01:00.97] I wonder why we always fightin', why I'm at an all-time

[01:05.48] Faith broken

[01:07.19] Fate knockin'

[01:07.76] They're loathin'

[01:08.84] I'm never getting older

[01:09.62] This moment is misjudged

[01:11.22] Can you focus, this feeling that it's over?

[01:17.60] I think about killing myself on the daily

[01:19.45] Everyone loves, but I feel like they hate me

[01:20.78] I can't explain the way that I feel

[01:22.11] So everyone thinks that I hate them, I hate me

[01:23.97] Blame myself for all of this hell

[01:25.32] My mama would tell me I need to get help

[01:26.64] But she isn't here 'cause she followed through

[01:28.52] I guess that explains my mental health, health

[01:30.65] I've been through hell

[01:32.50] These voices tellin' me that I'll never get out of my cell

[01:35.16] I used to walk the hallways and I talked to myself

[01:38.11] Now I got people always tryna tell me they proud

[01:41.31] I don't believe you, I've never seen you

[01:43.18] I'll never please you, I never need you

[01:45.34] So please relieve you, I'm pleased to leave you

[01:47.20] Here's a review, your heart is see-through

[01:49.35] It's hard to see through

[01:50.41] If I'm beneath you, then let me redo

[01:56.09] I need some peace to breathe, 'cause everybody's countin' on me

[01:58.21] And sometimes I just can't sleep

[02:00.87] My mind's got me on my knees

[02:06.18] I've never thought my life would come to this

[02:08.04] I know that Jesus made me for a purpose, but I feel I may succumb to this

[02:11.22] Pressure in my head, you're better off dead

[02:14.15] I'm a mess, what's success if you got no one left to share it with?