The Search

[00:00.74] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:02.74] I don't know, it's alright

[00:04.50] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:06.52] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:08.74] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:10.50] I just think I need a little me time

[00:12.75] I just think I need a little free time

[00:14.30] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:16.75] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:18.53] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:20.49] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:22.49] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:24.49] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:26.53] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:28.52] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:30.48] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:32.76] I've been searchin'

[00:33.75] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:34.77] I've been learning

[00:35.76] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:37.74] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:39.75] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:41.74] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:43.76] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:45.49] And things might hurt me

[00:46.76] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:48.75] It's worth it, though

[00:50.52] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:51.80] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:53.99] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:55.99] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:57.75] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:00.02] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:02.49] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:04.76] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:06.49] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:08.49] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:10.00] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:12.76] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:14.52] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:16.75] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:19.00] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:21.24] Where'd the beat go?

[01:23.26] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:24.24] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:26.25] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:27.76] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:30.28] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:32.49] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[01:34.24] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:36.02] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:38.24] I can be critical, never typical

[01:39.74] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:41.74] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:43.75] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:45.48] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:47.49] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:49.74] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:51.49] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:55.25] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:56.00] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:58.00] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:00.01] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:01.99] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:04.02] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:06.03] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:07.99] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:10.01] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:11.99] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:13.99] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:15.99] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:18.00] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:19.99] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:22.00] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:23.77] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:26.24] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:28.00] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:30.00] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:31.76] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:34.00] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[02:35.99] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:37.77] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:40.00] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:42.48] It's that time again

[02:44.27] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:46.02] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:47.99] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:50.02] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:52.24] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:53.73] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:56.01] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh