How Could You Leave Us

[00:09.91] How could you leave so unexpected?

[00:15.67] We waited, we waited for you,

[00:23.18] But you just left us

[00:27.43] We needed you, I needed you

[00:32.69] Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills

[00:36.70] But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills

[00:39.45] Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real

[00:42.21] I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah

[00:45.95] Welcome to the bottom of hell

[00:47.72] They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell

[00:50.72] You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well

[00:53.71] Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell

[00:56.48] Into my pillowcases, say you're coming to get us

[00:59.22] Then call a minute later just to tell us you're not, I'm humiliated

[01:02.98] I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know

[01:05.49] Some lady in the corner watching us, while she's taking notes

[01:08.50] I don't get it, mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?

[01:11.25] I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is no

[01:14.26] But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til them pills kill you

[01:18.02] I know you're gone but I can still feel you

[01:22.28] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[01:28.79] How could you leave us here?

[01:33.04] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[01:38.30] Oh, hey

[01:44.58] I got this picture in my room and it kills me

[01:47.83] But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing

[01:50.59] Now a relationship is something we will never have

[01:53.60] Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?

[01:56.59] You should've been there when I graduated

[01:58.60] Told me you love me and congratulations

[02:00.86] Instead you left us at the window waiting

[02:03.11] Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at, huh?

[02:07.36] Yeah, I know them drugs, they got you held captive

[02:10.12] I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured

[02:12.87] Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing

[02:15.88] And what you don't realise and what you're not grasping

[02:18.88] That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand it

[02:21.64] I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened

[02:24.64] I thought that maybe I'd feel better as time passes

[02:27.40] If you really cared for me, then where you at then?

[02:31.67] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[02:37.67] How could you leave us here?

[02:41.93] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[02:46.94] Oh, hey

[02:52.95] Our last conversation. You and I sat in the living room

[02:56.45] Talking 'bout my music and I brought you some to listen to

[02:59.46] You started crying, telling me, "This isn't you."

[03:01.96] Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune

[03:05.22] You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?

[03:07.72] They took you from us once, I guess they came back to finish you

[03:10.73] Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult

[03:13.48] Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you

[03:16.49] It took everything inside of me, not to scream at your funeral

[03:19.25] Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful

[03:22.00] I wish you were here, mama, but every time I picture you

[03:24.76] All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you

[03:27.76] They found you on the floor, I could tell you felt hollow

[03:30.77] Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

[03:33.53] You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

[03:36.53] Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you're still watching, why..?

[03:41.03] Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?

[03:46.29] How could you leave us here?

[03:50.31] How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

[03:55.56] Oh, hey

[04:02.07] Sometimes I think about like—

[04:11.84] Sometimes I think about things like, you know, when I'd have kids and like

[04:21.10] You won't be there, you know? You won't be there for any of that.

[04:30.37] I'll never get to see you again.

[04:41.14] Sometimes I wish I would have just called you, I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here.

[04:51.93] I mean you should have been there for us, you should have been here.

[04:56.94] Pills got you, right?

[05:00.20] Them pills got you, right?

[05:06.21] I wish you were here