Mansion

[00:00.36] Insidious is blind inception

[00:03.37] What's reality with all these questions?

[00:06.37] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[00:12.38] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[00:15.88] These walls are my blank expression

[00:19.13] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[00:22.39] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[00:30.66] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics

[00:34.66] They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors

[00:37.67] Written all over the floors, all over the chairs

[00:40.68] And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs

[00:43.93] That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release

[00:47.20] And let out the version of NF you don't want to see

[00:50.46] I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed

[00:53.46] You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me

[00:56.71] Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in

[00:59.97] That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it

[01:03.23] And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em

[01:06.54] But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em

[01:09.54] I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

[01:12.81] Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground

[01:16.06] Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now

[01:19.07] So now this memory for some reason just won't come down

[01:22.32] You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes

[01:25.33] Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried

[01:28.83] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[01:31.83] But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

[01:35.84] Insidious is blind inception

[01:39.09] What's reality with all these questions?

[01:42.10] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[01:48.86] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[01:51.87] These walls are my blank expression

[01:55.12] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[01:58.13] And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[02:04.21] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

[02:07.22] See my problem is I don't fix things

[02:09.22] I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened

[02:12.23] Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?

[02:14.73] Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean

[02:16.73] This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems

[02:19.99] The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave

[02:23.25] I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things

[02:26.25] But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep

[02:29.51] I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls

[02:32.77] Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom

[02:36.02] And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"

[02:39.28] But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song

[02:42.54] And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am

[02:45.55] And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can

[02:48.80] Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands

[02:52.05] Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans

[02:55.31] And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive

[02:58.32] And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die

[03:01.57] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[03:04.58] The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?

[03:08.84] Insidious is blind inception

[03:11.85] What's reality with all these questions?

[03:15.10] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[03:21.62] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[03:24.87] These walls are my blank expression

[03:27.87] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[03:31.14] And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)

[03:36.65] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years

[03:39.90] I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

[03:43.41] 'Cause if I do, there's a chance

[03:44.91] That they might disappear and not come back

[03:47.66] And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

[03:50.92] So I just leave my doors locked

[03:52.67] You might get other doors to open up but this doors not

[03:55.93] 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me

[03:58.68] And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me

[04:01.94] I'm barricaded inside

[04:03.44] So stop watching

[04:04.95] I'm not coming to the door

[04:06.70] So stop knocking, stop knocking

[04:09.20] I'm trapped here

[04:10.20] God keep saying I'm not locked in

[04:12.20] I chose this

[04:13.45] I am lost in my own conscience

[04:15.46] I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem

[04:18.47] But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em

[04:21.71] I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there

[04:24.72] But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here

[04:27.98] Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in

[04:30.99] Maybe that's the problem

[04:32.24] 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since

[04:34.24] I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did

[04:37.25] He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in

[04:40.50] Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win

[04:43.75] Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can

[04:47.26] 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors

[04:50.52] Is that me or the fear talking?

[04:52.27] I don't know anymore

[05:06.29] It's lonely

[05:10.79] Oh yeah it's lonely

[05:17.31] Inside this mansion